Having A Bad Day

[HelpWanted92]

I haven’t had a panic attack where I would have to call the ambulance in over a month, since oct. 17th to be exact. I would get anxious of course but it wouldn’t get far.

Today I feel absolutely terrible. I woke up around mid day to make myself some breakfast and I could feel that I was anxious but I thought it would go away. I’m making cereal and all of a sudden I feel like I can’t move, I start to wobble, I start to get dizzy and it scares me. My hands and feet become tingly. I run upstairs to grab my phone but refuse to call the ambulance so I call my boyfriend to calm me down.

I try to sleep, because usually I can sleep off my anxiety, but now, after about 2 hours I am awake and I feel exactly the same.

I don’t know what’s going on.

I’ve had a long week, this is my first week going back to work since being on medical leave for two months and I’ve felt fine all week.

What bothers me the most is that I’ve worked so hard to control my anxiety, I would hate for it to come back while I work, it use to be so debilitating.

I just don’t know what to do at this point.

[MariaLove123]

Going back to work is definitely the culprit here. And that is totally normal to feel more anxious than usual after a big change has occurred; especially going back to work after a month. It’s a big change. And no one with mental illness likes change. It’s scary to most of us! But I feel after a few days of getting back into the work routine, you’ll feel better. Just know this isn’t a permanent feeling. Sending hugs 🤗

[HelpWanted92 in reply to MariaLove123]

Thank you I really needed this!!! ❤️ I was starting to lose it for a bit.

[Jeff1943]

You're not having a bad day. You are having a day which offers you the opportunity to begin to recover.

Recovery comes when we can eventually accept anxiety for the time being. You can't practice that if you're having a good day.

The normal reaction to anxiety is fear. It was fear that long ago made your nerves over sensitive. Every time you feel high anxiety or experience the symptoms of anxiety you flood your system with fresh fear hormone. This ensures the continuation of your nervous sensitivity. It's a vicious circle.

Instead, imagine not feeling fear when you have an anxiety attack or become anxious and depressed over some fake symptom. What happens? Nothing happens: you've stopped targetting your nervous system with fear hormone. Do it enough times and your nerves will recover. They will become pacified and normal and you will recover your quiet mind. This is the truth.

So don't say you're having a bad day. Say you're having a day which gives you the opportunity to practice accepting your anxiety without fear which will eventually bring about your recovery.

[HelpWanted92 in reply to Jeff1943]

That you! This was extremely encouraging!