Anxious but thankful

[loveandlightseeker]

Woke up this morning with tremendous anxiety. My thoughts were racing between my failures, inadequacies, missed opportunities etc.

I then took a deep breath and challenged myself to see the good. A home to live in, a healthy child, a job, a family who I know loves me and God who loves me despite my emotions. In reality, the good far outweighs the bad. There is so much to be thankful for. It wasn’t the magic answer I still feel anxious but I feel better.

Living with anxiety and depression, it becomes difficult to gain control over our thoughts which are so often negative, but today I refuse to be victim to that. Making a sincere effort to express and feel constant gratitude today.

Hope everyone has a wonderful thanksgiving! 💜

[quitter333]

I cannot step in your shoes, but wouldn't looking for many new opportunities be a solution - after all, strictly mathematically you will not be able to fail everywhere even if you'll try. If you try not to fail, you already are swimming above the average, so your chances are actually rather great (remember that work/trials beats talent, because a lot of people simply never try again. It is extremely odd to see genius - talent+hard work in a single person).

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While my problems are not exactly connected with failures, I can give you an example from my life. And no it is not the usual - oh, I was depressed because of a girl, but then I tried and tried and found even better one, and realized that we should not get so attached.

My example is connected with my work - I was doing very well financially, but saw my job as boring and debilitating. So I simply quit. Could have stayed. I was unsuccessful to find another job, but I HAD to earn something, so I started doing everything I could - I was peddling stuff online, I was working in amusement park, I even found out that working as an actor in background pays rather good!, I wrote articles and comedy for random people, I even was in a bear suit distributing pamplets, and tried selling website creation services for companies around me.

So - eventually I landed a rather good job, where they want me because of my experience with small businesses. Now I am connecting my work and a business I run.

If I'd try few times, fail and then sulk, I'd be depressed because of my lost job for years.

But trying again and again actually worked - I was too busy to be sad. I was too busy to really think about my status or life. I was doing 5 jobs making ends meet and being proud I managed it all at once. Any failure (and trust me.. seeking job is 90% failures and unanswered letters) is forgotten once you get those few victories.

[loveandlightseeker in reply to quitter333]

Thank you for that advice. New accomplishments can certainly equate to confidence. I recently left my high pressure/ high paying job and while I’m fortunate to have another, it’s been a difficult transition. I’ve realized I connected a lot of my value and self worth to my career, titles etc. really trying to focus on the present and doing the best I can!

[Hidden]

Stop overthinking,I'm guilty of that too..focus on things you like to do and shut those voices..past is past!hugs and have a good thanksgiving 😉

[loveandlightseeker in reply to Hidden]

Thank you! You as well 💜💗

[Dontpanicjule]

I loved your post! Yes, the good always outweighs the bad, and you are focusing in on that. I am trying to do the same. Good health, three beautiful grandsons, a loving husband, and wonderful family. THank you for your post. I, as you, am a warrior to think positive thoughts!

[loveandlightseeker]

Thank you! I have always been such a positive and outgoing person but that has changed a lot in the last few years as a result of this illness. I forget how blessed I am just to have life’s basic essentials plus so much more! Hope we can both continue to look for the positive thoughts!