Anyone here with hipochondria?

[mags78]

I have had this type (and some of other types) of anxiety too. It started when i was seven years old. Seven! Thats crazy. I remember our neighbour died of breast cancer and i immediately sterted to check my (then) tiny breasts for lumps etc. I found sth hard-ish so i immediately assumed i have it too. My relationship with mu mum wasnt great so i couldnt talk to her about it. So for a few months i walked around depressed, scared i was dying, aftaid to tell my mum and too young to go to the gp myself. It then passed somehow but then i started freaking out when i heard ambulance and i was at school for example. I immediately imagined something happened to my family. Then it got worse. Two people in neighbourhood commited suicide and it got me scared to death. Since then i am actually scared i may somehow (not consciously) commit suicide. That something will come over me and i wont be in control. All health worries over the years about: brain tumours, MS, schizophrenia, cancer made me a mental wreck! 😢Now a few weeks ago i had a strange anxiety attack. I still dont know what it was but after i woke up i suddenly felt a wave/flush of heat going through my body, tingling and fear. But no palpitations, so not a typical panic attack. I feld odd that day. Scared and low. Then it got better. But few days later similar tjing happened! My GP checked me for stroke and heart attack because these were my fears. It was all fine but now im reading mini strokes dont show up on scans, tests etc. So im living now, quite depressed, suspecting doctor was wrong and i had a stroke and will die and leave my 5 year old beloved daughter and husband. I just cant shake it off! 😞 And im already on prozac so why am i getting anxious and depressed? It used to work better in the past i think. Im also scared my mood will always stay this way or thst the stroke had damaged sth in my brain. I can cry for hours, then feel indifferent, then very anxious. Im losing hope. Im just one of those individuals who have complicated mind to treat. Drinking a glasd of wine now, hopeless. Id rather have no leg than depression and anxiety. Im serious. Sorry about this rant on Friday evening. Hope you are spending it in a better way. Love to all 🌷 Maggie

[Tmarchand1977]

This is my main cause of anxiety! I’m constantly googling this pain and that pain. I’m female and could convince myself that I have prostate issues. My mind is very powerful and not necessarily in a good way.

I would say trust the Dr here. Panic and anxiety doesn’t always manifest itself in the same manner. I’ve had attacks with heart palpitations and without. Mine arent always the same, but the outcome is 😞 By the way, I also started checking myself for lumps around maybe 9-10 years old because of a magazine article I read. This anxious lifestyle sucks! It’s so good to meet others though who are like me.

[anxiousgirl7]

I have it. Zoloft did help take away the thoughts for a few months but now it’s back. Keep trying to find a solution ❤️

[Tmarchand1977 in reply to anxiousgirl7]

Zoloft didn’t do much for me other than make me groggy. I then tried another one that I can’t remember the name of and it did the same. I wasn’t willing to try more. I’m just having to learn to deal with it. It’s tough!

[Anxiousdude]

I’m sorry to hear that. I think a lot of people on here suffer from health anxiety. Have you talked to a psychiatrist? Maybe consider switching up your medicine. Same thing happened to me this last year as I watched my grandpa and father in law die. You are ok though. Try not to worry it will only make it worse.

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Hello mags78

I did a post a couple of days ago about Health Anxiety and asking who else suffers in another Community as I am a long term sufferer and can relate to your post very much

I remember when mine started and like you I was very young and I lost a close Uncle and the seed was planted , dying became a fear the thought if not me it would be another family member and so the fear grew

The simplest cold can be life threatening if I get one , a small mark I may notice that I have not noticed before becomes life threatening , I have thought for years I was going to have a heart attack and then brain tumour and now the C word I dread happening and I think that has been triggered of because I lost my Dad a few years ago to it , I hate even saying the word that begins with c

I agree with someone that has suggested seeing a psychiatrist or getting some kind of Counselling for this as when I started out on this dreadful path Mental Health was hush hush and if you did say anything you just got told to snap out of it or you were silly so you learnt to say nothing but suffer in silence , only problem is the fear just grows until it comes a part of you

Now middle aged I do have bits and bobs going wrong and my Health Anxiety has gone into over drive and I am feeling just like you do at the moment

I am struggling to get on with my day , struggling to find the incentive to want to get dressed and even waking in the night with the fear hitting me like a thunder bolt which is awful

I am trying to get Counselling but I also have developed agoraphobia over the years so I am struggling to get someone to come to me and give me Counselling but I won't give up trying because I may have suffered for years but it is never to late to try and get help

Don't suffer and ruin some of your best years like I did get some Counselling if you can but know you are not alone and not the only one

If I do ever find the answer how you over come this I will let you be one of the first to know

Take Care x