So, the first step I took after seeing things where not good at all(~5 years ago),was to decide if I really want to do something about it, or not.
We all probably know, that we decide to do something and then, after a short period we quit and slowly get back to our old lifestyle with changing it just a little, and then tell ourselves it did not work. I had to make sure that what I will do, will be for me and not for my image, not for my friends, not for my family, while acknowledging that I would need their help, and will try to help as much as I really can.
I had to make sure that, even if it would be a stressful period in my life, like the level of information I will have to gain, the things I will have to change, the failures that I would have to accept, the people I will have to let go, the unknown that I will have to face, I will acknowledge those and I will carry those until I would get stronger.
I had to accept the fact that I won't overcome this with ease and in a short amount of time.
So I accepted the terms and conditions and decided, I will embark on this adventure and as a first step, my first challenge, a challenge that won't be to stressful, but would be challenging nonetheless. I decided to change my sleep differently as I did all these years.From sleeping like a cocoon with my hands inside the covers, I accepted that they will be outside every night from here on out.And from sleeping on the belly I changed my position to sleeping on my back.Some might say that it is a too small task to be significant, but for me, it represents the only thing I need to worry about after I get into bed.
And that is my continuous challenge, my first step of changing myself and I'm still doing it, smiling every time I put my hands under the cover and taking them out. I don't need to be protected by the blanket, I need to protect the blanked so it can warm my body.
And that was my first step in overcoming depression.
My truth
The first step of not being afraid....
First step 
First step is asking for help 
