Confused

[Cat26538]

I’m filled with so much pain anger and hatred towards everyone. Idk why I feel this way. I’m having a hard time calming down due to panic attacks. I really hate myself right now. I wish the pain would go away

[paintingwords]

Hey. I am so sorry for what you're going through. I just want to tell you that your pain is real. I believe you when you say you're struggling. This is such a cruel disease, with no scars no wounds to show, when it is driving you crazy inside. It's painful, so painful. I know it's easier said than done, but please don't hate yourself. I am sure you must be amazing and the illness is telling you otherwise. I hope with all my heart that the pain goes away. I'm sending you love.

[LadyO4]

Thanks for trusting us enough to unload your feelings - I know it can be a little intimidating to expose things like this - but you are in good company and surrounded by people who care.

I think anger is a very complex emotion because of the amount of different things that can trigger it. There is an origin for it though, and I believe the key to unlocking why it can ruin a person's life is found in what caused the anger in the first place. Perhaps it stems from a childhood experience where the brain remembers things and heightens your sensitivity to similar type circumstances. It could be from hormone imbalances. It could be from the way someone violated you emotionally or physically. It could be from disappointments and unmet expectations. The list could go on.

No need to hate yourself - you can hate what has happened to you, but your life is way too precious and deserving of respect - try to love yourself and while hating what is around you, instead of the other way around.

Lord, I pray for my friend who is in need of knowing their worth, and why their life matters, I ask you to give them hope and reassurance that they are valuable in your sight and that you love them beyond what they can comprehend. Amen