Confused

Was having a really nice day with boyfriend when all of a sudden started to overthink. everything and got very panicky, he asked what was wrong and I can tell he’s getting sick of me all the time being so unstable. The paranoia gets worse because I’m scared one day it’s going to get too much for him and he’ll leave. I don’t know what’s wrong and I don’t know how to make it better. I am fighting it so hard but I feel so beaten by it.

[mn15]

What you feel like is how so many others, including me, feel.

Fighting is hard especially when you’re in it alone. I would say talk, talk to your boyfriend or maybe even a doctor. But it’s not easy. This is such a hard way to live but for so many of us it is the norm.

[Markyt]

Hiya. Please take a look on the posts I'm involved with, might help a bit. Might not. Hope you find what you need and soon

Regards

Mark

[km147]

hey! i totally understand you! it happens to me too in social situations. you have to talk yourself out of it because your paranoia is not rational. try to convince yourself to think rationally. that sometimes when we overthink we can blow things out of proportion.

[Hidden]

Thank you all so much, really just helps to know people genuinely understand these feelings.

[one-love]

I know your pain I have my good days and my bad days a lot of my anxiety attacks I thought were heart attacks in the beginning because of the physical symptoms I was always having (heart pounding, dizzy, impending doom feeling, breathing difficulty) but after years of having them and talking to doctors and therapists I realize now when I have them they are just anxiety attacks but they can be very scary for sure if you don't know what it is in the beginning. I hate taking RX meds too so it's a double edge sword, I feel like I trade one problem for another when I take the pills the doctors give me and all the side effects that come with them. To be honest I have been using medical marijuana for the last few years and I feel it really helps me and doesn't have near as many bad side effects. I know it might sound crazy but look into it and try a sativa strain it really helps with mood, anxiety and depression. But use a low does if you never tried it before

[chatnoirmd]

My hubby and I are good in the relationship area, but I always feel that way when making new friends. Especially if I start showing them the true me.

I’m a good person, I’m awesome, a little neurotic, and can be spacey at times. I give to charities and enjoy surprising people with small tokens of affections just so they know someone cares. I know these things but still have low self esteem (just an fyi, not tooting my own horn).

I do feel insecure way too often and am always the friend that does more... it leaves me wondering if I’m worthy. If I don’t make the effort, I never speak to or see my friends. Then I get frustrated thinking about it, and I’m cranky when I next talk to them and then they are confused. I then feel bad and worry they will ditch me for being so nuts.

It’s a never ending cycle that I’m trying to break. I don’t have any wisdom but can let you know that you are not alone