How can I feel like myself again.

[Theheart325]

I put up a front to people telling them that things are okay because I don’t won’t people to worry . I feel that it’s not their job or that they wouldn’t understand and tell me what I want to hear . I keep telling myself that I want to do more for myself but never have the motivation to do it . I wanted to go to school but was scared that I wasn’t able to do it or complete it because it wasn’t something I was interested in. Yes I want to learn new things and build a successful career for myself but then I ask “what’s the point” . What if I waste my time going and don’t get anything in return. Right now I beat myself up about it emotionally because I’m not sure on what I want to do . I hear “that’s okay ,take your time” but even that isn’t enough , if I was pushed into it I know that my anxiety would get in the way to the point where I would feel overwhelmed and give up. Then get depressed again. I just want motivation to move myself , find something that makes me happy and thrive from it . I don’t want to be stuck or feel like a let down as I do currently.

[Michael8072]

Hugs. I know exactly what you mean. I'm still there myself. I hope you find something you like and want to do and don't let those thoughts talk you out of it. Know that you can do it and accomplish it!!

[Theheart325 in reply to Michael8072]

I will continue to try my best maybe it will help just by talking/being with more motivated people too. So thank you!

[Michael8072 in reply to Theheart325]

Yes. I'm sure that will help.

[Avidreader9559]

I understand what you mean. It can be hard to get motivated when you are unsure what you want to do. Do you have access to a career center in your area? I think they are usually located at community colleges, colleges, and universities. I think they might be able to help you determine an area of interest to focus on. That might make it easier to find a direction to start in. Sometimes when I am feeling anxious, I have to go forward anyway and look past the anxiety. I have to see where I want to be and the steps I need to get there and just put one foot in front of the other. Would you be able to talk with a counselor who could help you learn other ways to handle your anxiety and depression? I hope you can find what you need to keep moving forward and enjoy the experience.