Scared I’ll lose my job

[Crich1982]

So, I’ve not felt myself since about this same time last year. Work was stressing me out and my doctor put me on medical leave. Now a year later, I feel worse but I’m still working. I call out sick about every two weeks because I just don’t have the resources to leave the house. My daughter misses school and I feel like a terrible mom. Work is saying they’re concerned about my absences. I don’t know what will happen. I’ve considered applying for disability benefits but I know that is a long and exhausting process. I make good money for myself and my daughter. I’m scared I won’t be able to support us with anything less that I make now. I’m so lost and sad and frustrated, I don’t know what to do.

[uniquediamond]

Hello crich1982

I just wanted to say I’m here for you, if you ever and I mean ever need someone to talk too.

I know what your going through! I’m a single mom of 3 children and I feel like such a failure. I sit home and think of ways to get out of going to work, “even lying” but then I tell myself STOP! and keep going do it for those 3 beautiful babies I have. It’s so hard! And I feel so selfish! Feeling this way is literally making my everyday life a challenge, to have a healthy life for my kids, I need to be healthy mentally and physically. I feel your pain! I’ve thought about getting on disability myself due to the fear of leaving my house and also having social anxiety when I’m at work, never had problems before. This all started 2 months ago! The going to work part anyways. I’ve battled anxiety and depression for over 11 years, but I feel like the last 2 have come in waves way more often then I’ve ever delt with before 😢 just please know that your not alone! And you can message me anytime!

[Crich1982 in reply to uniquediamond]

Thank you so much, you don’t know how much it means to know there is someone who knows just how I feel. May I ask what kind of work you do?

[uniquediamond in reply to Crich1982]

Your very welcome! And I’m a pet stylist “fancy word for” I cut dogs hair ha what about you?

[Crich1982 in reply to uniquediamond]

That sounds like it could be fun sometimes. I’m a social worker. Every day I kick myself because I’m out here working harder for others than I do for myself

[uniquediamond in reply to Crich1982]

That sounds like a very stressful job! Have you thought about taking time off to fix yourself? Or are you a single mom where you can’t do that right now?

[Crich1982 in reply to uniquediamond]

I just moved into a lateral position that I was given first opportunity to have out of a large department. I don’t know how much leave I have or if it’ll be enough to cover any paid time off. I’m scared to look. I have family that will help but I’m the go to person one in the family. My parents are retired and on a fixed income. My siblings don’t have consistent work or schedules to help. My adult niece is maturing into a responsible and dependable support but she’s trying to get on her feet herself. I just don’t know what I’m going to do.

[uniquediamond in reply to Crich1982]

How old is your child/children? You need to look into the mirror and tell yourself that you are amazing! I think that when children are involved and no matter how much we’re hurting we try so hard to continue this ongoing battle of depression and anxiety without them seeing, in my case I know my children see it. But that doesn’t stop us from trying. I would definitely look into maybe taking a few days off or even a week just to clear your mind, I think we all need that moment of peace.

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Do you have family that can help you? I had to go on disability for a while to get mentally healthy again.

[Findingstrength]

Crich1982,

I know what you're going through. Stress and anxiety can really take a toll.

I myself have had so many bad days, I called out for work so much. Dealing with my daughter not wanting to go to school. Finding out my daughter is Agoraphobic.

In my case, I was fired. 😞 But, things worked out, I'm starting a new job tomorrow. I know things seem hard, but they will get better.

I am here for you ☺