Hello I’m new

[leche_]

I’ve had depression & anxiety through my whole HS years and after graduation I thought things would’ve gotten better since I’m out of there but things just feel like they’ve gotten worse for no reason I am doing everything to be healthy I even stop self medicating, hurting myself , exercising, became vegetarian but nothing works I can’t talk to anyone bc I don’t have any money or insurance I also don’t even want to think about getting medication bc of my drug problems in the past Ik I’m only 18 but life really isn’t looking like it gets any better than this my birthday is next month and it really feels like it might be my last

[Worried-help]

Hi and welcome. Having anxiety and depression is not easy but you should be so proud of yourself, you have taken steps to better yourself. Eating better, exercising and you stopped hurting yourself, those are milestones. It's not easy for everyone to accomplish those things and you have, be proud of what you have accomplished you are doing great. I understand you don't have insurance there are places that you can get help free of charge maybe you can look into that. You can also always come here for support, we are not medical professionals but it helps to let things of your chest and have people that can relate and advise you one way or another. You are young and you will have many more birthdays to come and they will all be great.

[Shadow123-]

Hi and welcome. Swan has said it all so all I can add is a shoulder to cry on..... this site has helped me so much...... Just letting the words flow without judgement is a blessing.

You are young and with a little push you CAN turn things around.

Imagine yourself next years birthday as happy and successful. There's a lot in positive thinking.

Good luck my friend..

[Jimdubu]

I am sorry for the feelings you are having. Is there anyone you can talk to ? a sibling, Friend, or a church pastor ? If you feel in crisis there is a Crisis Text Line at 741741 and a professional will text you back of course you can dial 911 and there is also National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255. Are you seeing a therapist, because adulting is not an easy transition. Here is phone # for a great organizattion that can give you some free counseling advise 1-855-382-5433. Do you work? because if you don't or if you only work part time you may qualify for Medicaid ( Medical in California ) never hurts to call your county office. Here is a link to some resources for Adulting list.ly/list/1kHd-adulting and here are some resources on depression bit.ly/2yc8nk5 . Just remember you are special and it is going to get better, God is always there waiting for you to climb in his lap and give him all your worries and cares. Prayers to you.