Depressed 😞

[lovedogs51511]

I just have to vent and get this off my mind. All I have in this almost 30 degree weather is a scooter😭😭😭😭 I need my parents help in getting a reliable car but no just go piss off is all I get. I would pay them back but NOPE!!! Only need a thousand once I can get 3000 together in the next 6 months. I'm freezing my ass off in the meantime!😳😳😭😬 This is where it doesn't make sense.....I'm a recovered alcoholic and former drunk driver. I hate myself for doing that shit. Hate myself forever!!! But the shit that doesn't make sense is that they bought me car after car while being a drunk driver but after 7 1/2 years sober they refuse to help no matter what??? Huh??? Am I getting that right about it not making sense??? Its like I'm being punished as a sober responsible driver! Wtf??? I apologize for all of us asshole drunk drivers. I thankfully never hurt anyone but do understand that just cause I didn't hurt anyone doesn't excuse my behavior!!! Just putting peoples lives in danger by being on the road drunk is a potential fatality waiting to happen! Please never think your ok to drive drunk. All it takes is one time!! That's it. God bless you all💗 Sorry about the rant! Y'all have a beautiful weekend!!

[metalminded]

I'm sorry to hear that! Maybe they will change their minds at some point.

This should be the time they are helping you!!

[lovedogs51511 in reply to metalminded]

Hiya friend!!! That's what I thought too but its backwards right? They should of told me to go to hell back then and be proud I'm finally driving responsible and just loan me the money so I can get a car. They have money which irritates me. They can afford it. I'd be paying them back asap. I don't get it! This winter is going to be brutal!!!😭😭😬😬

[metalminded in reply to lovedogs51511]

Yeah, I agree. It doesn't make sense?!

[lovedogs51511 in reply to metalminded]

Nope I'm going crazy hoping they will help me in six months! If not brrrr😬😬😬 Hope you are doing good Leigh!!

[Shadow123-]

Hello Lovedogs

Long time no speak !!.... if u can't vent here my darlin where else ? You vent away and don't stop till u get it all out !!

Thinking of you.

Shadow x

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Shadow123-]

Wow thank you shadow123!!!😄 I know I'm a horrible person for ever drinking and driving but its just I can't get the help from them as a responsible sober driver. Don't get it. My mother says big deal having to ride that piece of s..t scooter when its going to be in the 30s in another week. Yea no big deal at all. Freezing my ass off😬😬😬 How are you doing my friend?

[Shadow123- in reply to lovedogs51511]

Well i had my internet go down and missed everyone sooo much cos this is part of my morning ritual..... loving being back and amazed by the kindness and welcome of dear friends.

Your NOT the horrible one - we put ourselves down too much. Something bad happened in a moment of weakness but you have owned it and taken responsibility for your actions. For that alone you should be applauded and not reminded of it. Sounds like your parents are quite old school - so many ppl would rather remain in the dark than except and try to understand a loved one who suffers with MH issues.

Thinking of you my friend and I'm so happy to connect again. Chin up and shoulders back my girl. I know you're a fighter !!

Thinking of you and have yourself a wonderful day 🙋‍♀️🐾 xx

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Shadow123-]

Hiya Shadow123!!! Wow that was truly a very sweet thing to say! I'm super glad you got your internet back!! Always so happy to hear from you😄😊🌸 I too love this community of amazing, caring and thoughtful folks!!! I have to check in here thru out the day. It helps to know your not alone! As far as the drinking and driving goes it happened everyday. Every time I got a bit drunk I would jump in my car and go. I tried to hide keys from myself or have somebody else do it. I didn't want to drive I would just drink and then feel like driving. It was bizarre and extremely dangerous. God thankfully took that severe addiction away. I'm relieved to know that I'm done putting peoples lives at risk. Now I'm facing seizures taking my license away!! I just got my Utah license but if I have another seizure I could lose my license forever. The consequences for losing my license are harsher when its a medical condition but 3 duis isn't worse? Makes no sense. I'm just glad to be sober!! Like you said ppl like to remain in the dark. I was always invited to holiday dinners back as a drunk but now sober I'm not invited. Unbelievable. Personally I'd rather spend the holidays alone like I did for 5 years in las vegas!! I was states away from them and was happier in life for once! Sorry I'm rambling. Hate when I do that. I'm truly sorry! Going back to Vegas as soon as I can! Hate Utah!!! Thinking of you too dear awesome friend!😊😄😄😎😎😂😂 Shoulders back!!!😄😄 Hope to stay connected cause your an awesome person!! Huggs!! Have a beautifully blessed day too🌸🌸🌵🌴🌺

[Shadow123- in reply to lovedogs51511]

You are an inspiration. You have fought one of the most horrible diseases I've ever come across- my partner was an alcoholic but that's another story.

You are a strong and beautiful woman and I'm glad to know you.

Thinking of you and have a great day yourself xx

[Michael8072]

~hugs~

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Michael8072]

Huggs back!!!