Trying to keep my head clear and free of irrational thoughts. I have my affirmations for anxiety pinned on my bulletin board at work. I have the poster my boyfriend made me of his affirmations for me on the wall next to my bed. Haven't had my anxiety/depression meds in several days due to the side affects. The boyfriend started a new job, he is very happy with it, we go for paternity of his daughter on 10/30/18. We know its his child , but in order for his name to be on the birth certificate we have to go thru court. Now the mother of the child is being very immature telling him she will call court to have it adjourned as much as possible to keep him away from his child. All he has asked for until court is a quick text daily telling him how his child is doing and a picture if she has a chance. He wants to be a part of his child's life, and she is making it very difficult, which is putting strain on our relationship. I am fully aware his child comes first, would never ask him to put me a head of his child, but something has got to give. I hope that with court, we can have some kind of structured visitation with the baby.
Will be going to the pharmacy to pick up my script for Welbutrin xr. I have tried lexipro ( made me feel like i was in a constant state of anxiety), i have tried Viibryd ( which worked extremely well, until i started experiencing twitching and muscle spasms)
My life keeps getting worse
The voice in my head won't stop
Hit my head with my smartphone 
It's scary in my head 
Creating scenarios in my head
