I am feeling down and lost. So on edge and restless. Less than worthy. I know the lies depression and anxiety and bipolar give. And still it’s hard to believe any nice things about myself. I tend to blame and mistreat myself when in pain. As a kid I hated hugs when I was in pain. I guess it hurt more as it didn’t seem I deserved it.
I am using affirmations but I can’t seem to quite believe yet as if I have grown to be a different person who has no good qualities any longer. I feel like my strength is falling apart. I am tired of constantly trying to feel something other than what is.
I don’t know what I expect by sharing here. But thanks for reading.