New here, hoping to communicate with others who understand anxiety. I am 50, so the road has been long. Years of peace, but anxiety and mild depression lurking in every worry. Life happens and any bad stuff triggers it all. I have a therapist and currently on medication.
I sort of a meltdown today. Doctor’s visit with some issues he dismissed but I started worrying anyway (understood better now), other financial problems arised, just too much on the last 24 hours was overwhelming and I could not stop crying and feeling fearful. Reached out to therapist, family and close friend. They give me love and support but some family members don’t understand why I can’t control this better. “You’re so intelligent, why can’t you rationalize? Why always thinking negative and expecting the worst?”
It would be so good to have that skill. To find the “off” button. But I don’t have one. After the meltdown, comes the shame, the embarrassment... but it will get better.
Thanks for reading.