Hi I’m new to the group. Some background, I”be been struggling with depression, anxiety, and a host of others things for most of my life, even at a very young age. I have pretty much no one to talk to, no close family, I haven”t had any real companionship in nearly 20 years. I lost my job of 12 yrs back in the spring. Got another one thankfully but it pays half of what I used to make, so likely will lose my house next. I also have systemic lupus. I am exhausted all of the time and my body hurts all the time. I have severe social anxiety and am terrified to talk to people. Medicine doesn’t help. Can’t afford therapy. On top of all that I have been and believe I’m still being stalked and cyber stalked by a woman who believes I had something with her husband, a person I didn’t meet until after the fact, in passing, for about 5 minutes. She’s destroyed the little bit of trust I had left it in people. Any self esteem or self worth I had is gone. I’m tired and most days I don’t want to be here any more, but I have no choice. I know I one can fix me and I have to be the change I want to see, but I cannot pick myself up off the floor long enough to do that. I don’t know how to ask for help. Sometimes I think all I need is a hug, but there is no one. I’m not sure there’s ever been anyone. It’s been a really bad couple of days and I just needed to get the emotion out of me. I appreciate anyone who took the time to read this.