I just went through a break up, and for some reason this one is really bad. I can't eat, every time I close my eyes I have dreams about him, I feel stuck inside my head. Everyone wants to help, but they don't understand I am okay I am just sad. Really sad.
The one person I want to talk to has left and the only other person I want to talk to is dead.
I'm a chronic depressant. I know it. I look out the car window and just think about jump out in the road, or smashing into a wall.
I don't wanna kill myself. I don't wanna die. I just don't wanna be sad anymore.
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wow, when I look out the window i go back to the past, thinking how life was so beautiful,as a kid. think good things good thing can happen again,. That how i look at it, the only thing is i have to be patient.
I can remember having the same thoughts about slamming into a wall with my car on the way to work one night. That’s when I knew that I needed to call my Psychiatrist’s office and make an emergency visit as soon as possible. I did end up in the hospital that time. Please get the assistance you need! Those are alarming thoughts, I know how you feel. If you have trouble with impulsivity, do visit your doctor right away...wishing you the best 🙂🌺🙂
I felt that way a few years ago and ended up in the emergency room @ the local medical center...I didn't want to kill myself...I just wanted to stop feeling the way I was feeling and knew I couldn't do it on my own...so I was admitted to the hospital's behavioral health center for a week or so ...went through their "learning how to deal with your condition" lessons and had some meds adjusted....told there was no more they could do for me and booted out the door.
I've since seen counsellors and psychiatrists....gotten my outlooks and meds adjusted..gotten frustrated with meds...gotten off them and now am living with myself and trying not to look for a "cure" in a person with initials before or after their name or a pill from the pharmacy.
If my nutshelled version of my experience helps...then good...It's an Idea of what you can expect if you want to go the emergency room route.
If you want to hunt down a counsellor on your own....that's an option....there are a bunch of them out there.
If posting here is all you need...then even better!
We're here...and you won't get our bill in the mail.
Not on you're own the only person I want to talk to or have to talk to is dead... Not to shabby for my ex girlfriend tho she had everyone helping her while I've had to deal with it 100% by myself for the last year and a bit... Rough stuff and still is just keep grinding away it's all you can do really but with the scared depression it can be extremely hard best of luck pal. She had 13yr of my life so am done with letting her finish me off too.
Hey ImNotCrazyJustSad , I get ya! When my husband was diagnosed with kidney failure the sadness overtook me like a blanket. The world kept turning but I did not want to be in it, however I had zero desire to harm myself. It is depression, as you indicated, but the question is how to get out from under that blanket that envelopes you. I can only tell you how I did it and encourage you to look outside yourself for hope but to also allow yourself to grieve. You have lost your person and unlike the death of a loved one separation through choice is harder to overcome. I have a friend who's husband left her for a co-worker and after years she remarried and her new husband died about 10 years after their marriage. She told me that now being through both divorce and death that death was way easier than divorce because she knew her husband that died left not because he wanted to but because of sickness. You need to grieve your loss and you need help doing it. I didn't want to ask for help but I did and I was able to overcome my grief and want to live again. New Life counseling was my life line. You can go online and listen to them counsel others @newlife.com or call them at 1-800-NEW-LIFE. Another great resource is 1-855-771-HELP. Hope you find peace, comfort, and joy again soon!
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