Just sad and down

[Adamj]

I really was hoping buspar was going to be the drug to help me but thinking back to when I first started it over a month ago yea it did help a first but as I was taking it I noticed I was feeling even more emotionally numb and spaced out yes it did help my mind feel somewhat clearer for a little but eventually turned into me not being able to think right and feeling numb and in the background I could still feel the intense anxiety but it felt like it just has a blanket on it. Before I started it I was still having days where I felt okay and felt good around my girlfriend being lovey and stuff now I just feel numb I barely have emotion it sucks. I’m just sad thinking about all this and how my anxiety came back so strong and intense and felt like something new and still is intense at times with the sensations and pins and how I just want out of this dark place and to stop the feeling of something bad is about to happen to me. I realized just even talking to people my anxiety kicks in it so stupid I use to work in customer service and could talk to everyone. I’m just down today I don’t want to have to take medicine and I’m so nervous what this brain MRI tonight will show

[Adamj]

And being suicidal again after not being it for years and seeing memories of myself this time last year is making me even more down. Hell I don’t want to die but I’m tired of living this way and always thinking I am about to have something bad happen to me

[EndUser13]

Emotional blunting is far too common in drugs used for anxiety and depression 😞

On occasion, I'd like to be able to cry or get angry... just a bit, nothing huge. I hear you

[Skjones]

Stay strong my friend I'm here for you and I'm sure your MRI will be fine if it comes back normal maybe talk to a psychiatrist about othe rposible things this is just my experience I thought I just had a anxiety disorder and depression for years and nothing helped but I went back and about 15 yes later I was found to have a type of ocd once they found that out I was able to get the proper help and combo of medicine I'm here for you and will be hoping for the best

[Adamj in reply to Skjones]

Thank you I made it through the MRI

[Skjones in reply to Adamj]

Good keep me posted on anything and reach out if you need to brother