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[cagedpotential]

I’ve only talked too 2 other people plus a therapist about this a month ago, but I’ve had this feeling for a while.. so time to open up and talk and I feel like this is the place to do it. I’m tired of the constant empty feeling I have all day long but at the same time I’m holding back tears all day, and I don’t even know why. I can’t have a regular conversation because I just don’t relate to anyone. I even have a hard time with other depressed people because I often feel people just in general lack empathy for other people and it’s sad and hurts and I feel like there’s just no way to get people to listen to that, so I normally keep in my head so when I have to come out and talk the words don’t come out right. Im currently working on finding my purpose is this world because I know I have one and it will make the world a better place somehow I just have no idea how, and most of the time I can tell myself I’m only 22 I have a long time to figure out and even after I do the world still won’t be different for me but that doesn’t stop me from daily thinking my existence is purposeless that’s why I can’t figure out what it is. Sorry for ranting I just created the account and had a lot on my mind. LOVE YOU GUYS!

[Passionchick22]

I feel the same way and I’m less than 2 years shy of 30...many of the people I’ve talked to about this tell me I’m too hard on myself but I think it’s bs I think I’m not hard enough. I’ve had this same empty feeling for two years now...like everything would be better and easier for everyone if I just disappeared. Like the moment when you’re surrounded by all these people and yet still feel the empty black hole in the pit of your heart... just sucking all the happiness out of you and having to hold back tears and the lump that you want to scream out...because it makes no sense for you to cry for no reason unknown to them... the once you finally have time to let it out on your own crying so hard that you don’t recognize your weeping anymore. Every day is a constant struggle. 😭😔

[Hidden]

I understand how you feel-it's hard to relate to other people. Since I am the only one in my group who suffers from this it's hard to find anything relatable. All I can say is keep hanging in there and see a dr. and therapist if you can.

[cagedpotential in reply to Hidden]

I just recently started going to a therapist and it does really make me feel a little more human after my 45 min is up. Thank you for your time!

[Justswimming]

I don't know if your on meds but they definitely help. You can't really relate until your depression is at least a little lfted. Don't give up ..small steps ..add exercise go for walk in the woods or on the beach get some sunlight and fresh air ...some music...coffee helps

[cagedpotential in reply to Justswimming]

I haven’t tried meds before but I’m starting to think they aren’t just an option but more of something that is actually needed. Thank you for the tips I’ve said it in like every post but I love how caring and informative this community is.