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Thank you to those who helped me and gave me tips on my last post, it made me happier for a while but, once again, I can't stay happy. I really want to go to a therapist, anything that'll help. I just want to not be sad all the time. I'm stressed all the time about school and everything at home and its weighing my head down. Like, yes I know I should just talk to someone already but its hard to talk about feelings I've kept in for about 3 years. Things are still very hard and it ends with me probably crying for half an hour. (Sorry this is sort of a vent post)

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I’m not sure what all other people told you but I’m sorry to hear you’re having a hard time in high school. It was hard 15 years ago when I went and I’m sure it’s only gotten worse for people with technology and social media.

That being said, I think you need to truly talk to someone and learn to love yourself. Have you considered more of a group setting since it’s hard to talk about your feelings? It sounds intimidating and I never imagined I would respond to it as well as I have in the past but if you go and participate once your comfortable it can really help. You help others feel heard and cared for and in return you feel heard and cared for. You don’t have to participate right away but you aren’t as alone as it feels.

Alternatively, have you considered talking to someone on here to kind of break the wall down around your emotions? Maybe see if that makes it easier to talk to. I don’t know it’s just a thought.

Finally I have to get back to work but I just wanted to say that sadly people being two-faced, being mean and engaging in gossip never really goes away. I’m 33 and still hear that junk at work all the time. Try and remember that there are some people who will ALWAYS do those things and it isn’t you, it’s them. Learn to filter it out when possible, don’t give them anymore fuel than necessary, and try and work on feeling confident in who you are so they can’t bother you as easily.