I give up

[Pocha45]

I have been out of work for a year things aren't changing I'm getting worse i literally fear the world I'm tired I'm so tired I'm used to working and feeling great i have tried therapy meds etc. I'm lost I'm grown and scared. What have i done to my life i left a career of over a decade to get better and I'm not where i should be. I have nothing left. Racing thoughts always in the house embarrassed of myself no direction. Why do these things happen to us.

[Callie1518]

I hear you. I left a job in my field because of social anxiety. I guess this is a slow process of healing, finding the right medication and getting therapy. I took a menial job at a supermarket where I do not really interact with my coworkers due to social phobia. I work two days a week but I only do it so that I am not completely isolated. I try to do the things I fear like ask people to meet me for lunch out somewhere so the fears don't take over. Avoiding things becomes an addiction I heard. So does dependence (depending on people to do things for us we used to do ourselves), is there anything that you could do to fight the fear and get out? I know that sounds impossible but if we don't face our fears we become fulltime prisoners in our home. I spend alot of time home alone doing nothing as well. The why question is impossible to answer I think we spin our wheels when we ask it. My nurse friend who works with elderly people in a nursing home says everyone becomes anxious at that age. Was there stress or trauma that made you leave your job? Hang in there. I hope you find hope and encouragement on this site. Sending you hugs and thoughts of encouragement.

[bigMac77]

I'm the same... Msg me any time if you want to talk.. All the best I feel you're pain I've tried to get help to take my life in a new direction but there is no help I've also no family left, I'm simply screwed and I don't want to except it but if I don't I'm gonna die inside completely and I near enough have.

[Mynoor]

Hi, how are you doing now? You know we all can help you up right? Any job is a job, all of them pay for hard work. And everybody has to (re)start somewhere! Aim small, then let your dreams follow your confidence. Try making lists or daily schedule? It really helps me keep track of my accomplishments (I consider washing my hair as an accomplishment)! You may feel less anchored by negativity when you start rewarding yourself for completing goals; even if it as small as sorting the closet, or washing hair etc. You starting and moving up > Where you are starting and moving up from. <3 Good luck and keep writing!

[Starrlight]

Pocha I am so sorry you have been in so much pain. I hear you and I wish you well with all of my heart.

[Starrlight]

Pocha?