Living with anxiety

[marebear45]

I'm 21 years old and I feel like my anxiety is spiraling out of control. In February, i got out of an emotionally, mentally, and physically abusive relationship. i have had anxiety for as long as i could remember, but i had it under control at college until my ex and i were in a domestic. At the time, i had to go to police/university/etc about the situation. during that time, everyone said i needed to go to counseling but i "drowned" my feelings with alcohol. since school was over and my internship began, i do not drink like i used to. i'm in much better physical health but now my mental health took a greater toll on it than i realized. every day, i think about my past relationship. on top of that, i feel like i am always on edge and worries. what makes it worse is the physical symptoms such as feeling dizzy, unexplained pains and aches, shortness of breath and accelerated pounding heart rate. despite those, i have gotten some small tests done and my general health is in near perfect condition. i try to talk to family and friends about it, and they mainly tell me to calm down and i have nothing to worry about. no matter what i do, i can never calm down. i feel so out of touch with the world anymore and it's causing doubt, distress, and confusion. I just don't know what to do anymore about it. i never realized that maybe my past relationship took a bigger toll than i realized.

[Hidden]

Hey there. First & foremost, welcome to this site. I’m so proud of you for sharing your story with us & being brave enough to talk with us about what’s going on with you. I can relate to you so much more than you realize. I was in a deeply abusive relationship as well for ten years. I met him when I was sixteen & we broke up in February after he tossed me out of a moving vehicle while I was pregnant. I’m also dealing with severe depression, anxiety, & PTSD for my issues. I know how you feel. I actually felt in so much pain that I attempted suicide. I am on the road to recovery, but it’s not an easy journey & it doesn’t change overnight. Have you ever thought about talking to a therapist or counselor? Maybe getting on some medication to help control your anxiety? It helps me. I also work out a lot, I love yoga & kick boxing. I like to meditate too & read lots of books. This site is a wonderful place to vent your frustration to people who get it. I feel so strongly for your words. Your relationship really hurt you, & I am so sorry that happened. You’re a strong woman & I know you can get through this. Thank you again for sharing. I am here if you need me. I am with you on this journey, sister. We are taking our power back. <3 xo

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Hidden]

✌🏼Woman power

[marebear45 in reply to Hidden]

thank you for your support, i have been working out and it does help with some of the day to day anxiety... and looking for therapy to help with the deeper issues. i am so proud of you for getting out of that and taking your life back. i agree, no one needs to go through that kind of pain and hurt. its a day to day struggle and surely it will get better. you're so strong!! <3 xoxo

[Hidden in reply to marebear45]

I’m proud of you for getting out of your situation too. I know it isn’t easy. I hope that things get better for you. Please know that you’re not alone suffering with this. You’re so strong too! We got this girl! <3 xo

[hannaallison101]

stay strong

[marebear45 in reply to hannaallison101]

thank you so much

[Hidden]

Maybe since you are drinking less you are experiencing all the feelings you were self medicating with the alcohol?