I think I'm insane.

[HeyItsThatKidd]

I have this thing where everything that I do, Seems to have a negative consequence to something totally unrelated. Like At work if I pick a box, it has to be a certain box or else something bad happens. It can be anywhere from Something happening to people I care about or something happening to me. Anything from death to disease and it's killing me...I think I'm losing it....Who else suffers like this? I think my mind is broken and I don't think I can be saved from this as it's a horrible issue now and My psychologist rarely answers her phone. I'm very afraid

[anxietyandcats]

It sounds like what you’re experiencing could be OCD. You can get negative feelings and things attached to objects as refuse to buy them or use them. And you can excessively worry and imagine horrible things happening to people you care about. Maybe read more about it and see if you relate? and I’m sorry your psychologist rarely answers that must be so hard.

[Hidden]

Maybe you could frequent a psychologist who answers their phone...you’re not responsible for all the consequences, that’s your disease talking. You probably need to see a Psychiatrist who can also help you with medication therapy. Wishing peace for you! 🙂

[fauxartist]

'if I pick a box, it has to be a certain box'....the reality is....we are just not that powerful that we can actually change events in the world by simply picking an object....and if it's not the right object.....there would be actual physical consequences that would happen cosmically in the world. Now that's the real world....in your world...why do you believe this could actually happen.....what happened in your life that has you in this state of mind now. And obviously your therapist is not doing you any good....so get one that will be there for you and start the work you need to get this kind of thinking in check and get to the root of the cause. No one here are experts or professionals....and it does sound like your having a very difficult time....I would get expert help as soon as possible for your own peace of mind.

[Krazie]

Yes, I agree with much of what was said in previous posts. Especially the part about professional help. A psychiatrist can help with medication. There is plenty of medication to help with what you describe. Personally, though, I would stay away from anything that hasn't been on the market for 12-15 years.

You are not insane as much as having a little glitch in the brain. Happens with other organs of the body, too.

I am sending hugs of comfort and blessings to you.