Hi everyone,
I just wanted to give a quick update about what's going in my life since being on Wellbutrin while being a new mom to a 3 month old ( as of today ). I am slowly adjusting to the medicine, I notice a mild difference in my mood far as I don't feel anxious as much. This morning I received some news about a church member who passed away from a heart attack in which I knew him for years. In fact, we share the same birthdays! I just spoke to him a couple of weeks ago.. After receiving this sudden news, I felt depress and heart ache for his family especially his mother. When the family make the final arrangements for his services, I'm debating if I need to attend. I want to pay my respects to the family but, at the same time I don't do well at funerals meaning I don't want to see someone at their complete stage of life. It all started when my mother died and during her services I had to sit in the front and view her throughout the services. At the aged of 30 I still see this image from time to time and my mother died when I was 9. When my grandma died last year, I did the service arrangements alone and when it was everything was finalize, I couldn't see her in that way. I had to ask my sister to view her before the services. The only thing I seen was a close casket. Death is something I can't handle, even if it happens to someone I don't know. I know death is apart of life but, to be honest with you guys this is something I can't grasp... I'm afraid of death