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Hi, i am new here. I was looking for local support groups but cannot find any, or don't really feel like paying for me to discuss things. Weird i know. I am currently a single mom of 3, kids dad is in their life which helps a lot, But after 4 yrs of being divorced and finally things in my life calming down... the depression has hit, i have always had anxiety. I am scheduled to see a doc today and talk about meds, i hate that it has came down to that, but i don't know what else to do. I have a small family so i don't have many people to turn too. I have always been the one that my friends can count on and my family and i just want someone to be there for me without me asking. i think this has all came up because i recently met someone or did meet him 11 months ago, and i thought things were good, slow and steady. and i think i pushed him away, we are remaining friends because he is good to me, But it hurts at the same time because i want to be with him, I pray all the time for that and all the other struggles in my life and i feel like i am drowning... i was told that i need to journal and speak about it, so here it is. i am sure this will pass, but all i can do is think about the past and how much time it has been since i was once happy, and then the future to how much longer do i have to wait for things to change...

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Hey u....I have been a single mom for 8 years now....it can be a hard road, but a good one too. And I have had several post marriage relationships not work. You aren't alone. Hang in there....the sun will shine again. Lots of good listeners on this site.

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Depression does not usually pass unfortunately...and there is no shame in needing to take meds....the stigma of being depressed and needing medication as being some kind of last ditch effort is just an unfortunate myth. Your right in that you should also be acknowledged when you need help, but when your always the rock, people mistakenly think you can always handle things on your own. Once you talk to your doctor about the medication, it is probably a good idea, to re-consider therapy...it's not just paying someone to listen to you talk if you get one that actually can help you. It is a trial and error thing, like with medication. You have to find the right fit. I'm glad your sharing here, it's a great group and good people. If you start reading posts and comments, you'll find that you can relate to what others are going through like yourself. Your not alone with this.