Depression

[Lali2018]

I’ve been depressed most of my life; hiding behind different masks. A survivor of a mentally , emotionally and physically abusive childhood. I’ve also been in denial About the sickness in my family most of my life. I’ve blamed myself always...For everything....sometimes I’ve appeared manic instead of depressed to those that didnt understand ...but I now understand that it’s always come from a place of self destruction. But I was taught not to whine early....” there are always those who need/hurt/are sicker and we must learn understanding...”anyway...enough...the last Five years of my life have been spent in a deep depression which has been getting deeper ...doubt that without the support of my two daughters, I would now be reaching out.....this is so painful 😖 Recently my oldest daughter recognized all symptoms of PTSD in me. I recognize all the symptoms in myself...I have only the thinnest defense against Any emotional assault, I’ve become a recluse to heal...It’s the only way I know how to do it alone and keep on going. I love people though...so anyway... thank you 🙏

[Weaty]

Hey I know denial all to well. Then my mother took me to my gp. It's a huge struggle but no-one can tell me about my childhood cause I'm sure I wasn't born this way. This groups support has really helped and made me feel less alone

[Lali2018 in reply to Weaty]

Thank you 😊

[bridder01]

Howdy Leila! I can totally understand where you're coming from. I too was verbally and emotionally abused growing up and I am only now starting to emerge from my little rock. Finding a place where people are supportive and caring can make a huge difference. It has for me This place has really helped a lot. I'm more personable and outgoing. Baby steps, though. You can do this! Just have a little faith in yourself. If you ever need to vent or to talk, we're here for you. I'm here for ya You're not alone in this fight!

Your friend,

Brian

[Lali2018 in reply to bridder01]

Thank you so much Friend Brian, really appreciate all your support 😊

[bridder01 in reply to Lali2018]

Anytime Leyla! *lots of hugs*