I don't know what I should do. I move to a new city and the only person I know is my husband. have depression for around ten years and it comes back and forth. I take medication for around two years. I am not sure when I will get better and it is like an endless journey. I feel I let all my family down and they showed understanding at first and then they were so so tired of listening to me. I have several quarrels with my husband and he just didn't understand me. He calls me "lazy" which really hurts my heart. Sometimes I feel good but most of the time I feel really bad and I can't do anything. I know I should start my work and continue my education path but I just feel so tired and I don't want to do anything. I feel I keep complaining and I don't even like myself.