Does anyone else ever feeling like they are doing this to themselves? Like maybe I should just try harder to be happy or maybe I focus on negative things too much or maybe I can just get over it and ignore things that trigger me? Like when I have certain thoughts I feel like I’m bringing it on myself. Aren’t I the one controlling my thoughts? And if I am then I should be able to stop it and feel better. Is normal real? Because I’m always trying to be that
And then today, I was just living, and not thinking about how I was feeling or acting and one of my good friends said she couldn’t keep up with me because I was wired. Idk what that means but it makes me feel like when I’m just being it’s not normal.
Idk I just want to be someone else for awhile