I joined this site several months ago after spending a week hospitalized for severe anxiety and depression. The support and help I got while there was incredible. I felt rejuvenated. Being surrounded by people who didn’t judge me and knew what I was going through was relieving. And when I got out I was sure I had a good game plan in place to remain positive and keep my anxiety manageable. Joining this site was one of them.
Now I feel it’s all falling apart. My major trigger is work. I’m overwhelmed. I don’t trust myself and have to triple check my work before I can move on. My performance has gone downhill because I constantly worry and can’t concentrate or think clearly. It’s become a complete mess. As much as I’ve tried and would like to find a new job, I’m unsure my ocd would get any better.
Worst of all it’s affecting my home life. I’m anxious all the time, consumed with thoughts about work. I try to keep things in perspective but my focus always end back on work. My wife and kids are suffering from my miserable attitude.
Im tired. This anxiety is exhausting.
If you read all of this, I appreciate it. I’m not expecting any feedback as I just really needed to get this off my chest.