How I feel

[KMorgana]

Do you ever catch yourself in the moment? The exact moment between the numbness and the pain. The moment where happiness becomes blurred. When everything suddenly slips and your mind leads you so far into the dark that nothing can be distinguished. Nothing except the tears, the blood, and eventually the scars. I never have. It seems like emotions can be an all or nothing sort of thing. Sadness and anger have the ability to spread and corrupt anything and everything. One small trigger. One small reminder of how fragile life is. How fragile I am. It’s like I am painting on a blank canvas that has already been placed inside an expensive frame. So afraid to let the paint drip. Let it stain. To show some type of noticeable flaw. I catch every stray drop and collect them in my hands. Before long, I can no longer hold it. Everything begins to seep through my fingers. It becomes uncontrollable. The pain, the desires, the blood... it’s all too much.

[Angelfox2002]

Let it go, wear your fears with pride knowing that everyone has them but you’re brave enough to face yours! You’re not the only one, you’re just one of the few willing to admit it! I’m impressed by your way with words! Are you a writer?

[KMorgana in reply to Angelfox2002]

Thank you! Ummm no not really, but I definitely enjoy it!

[Vonnah in reply to KMorgana]

There's no way your not a writer!!!!!!!!!😂........i see lots of talent👀👏💯

I wish i could express myself better about my depression and anxiety. I need a release and still haven't found any way to cope😪

[KMorgana in reply to Vonnah]

Aw thanks 😂. Writing has always interested me, but at my age there isn’t much you can do with it.

[Vonnah in reply to KMorgana]

I understand😊✌

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Hi KMorgana!

Although it was a little dark, I very much enjoyed reading your post! I was right there with you, feeling what you were feeling. What a talent! You should give that some good thought!! I’m not feeling your self-proclaimed fragility. You sound very intelligent, capable and insightful. Don’t allow the sadness and anger to overtake your mind. Practice some distraction, gratefulness and/or helping someone less fortunate. If you don’t have a Psychiatrist/therapist, I would recommend getting one. Taking positive action plus or minus the meds, helps me tremendously! I pray for your peace of mind, and keep writing!!

[Vonnah]

You should be a writer with how deeply you express yourself. Amazing. I hope you feel better and find something that will take your mind off of your pain. I support you.

[KMorgana in reply to Vonnah]

Thank you!