Has anyone felt like they are here for no reason?

[Aternumvale]

I sit and wonder why am I here, I contribute nothing, and have negative thoughts and feelings about 90 percent of the day. I want to feel happy but I never am.. Even when presented with good news I find it hard to be truly happy about it. I feel like a failure most of the time and wonder why the hell am I here? My whole life I have had bad series of events that just keep punishing me even till this day. If I get a job I lose it because I'm not smart enough or if I see myself gaining weight but cant even push myself to go to the gym or run around my house. So I sit, every day and watch T.V. and cant even push myself to get up and change my life. I recently went to school and I'm almost done but even when my brain knew I had to do homework and tests I couldn't push myself to do them. I'm tired of being depressed all the time with anxiety driving me up the walls. I want to be happy.

[Sunnidayz1]

Please stop beating yourself up. Nobody is perfect. We all are human so please stop it's not worth the pain you put yourself through.

Now, if you really want to change your life and feel better then try to see a counselor or therapist.

Please know you're never alone & continue to use this site to express yourself. Awesome people here!

XxSunni

[Kevin160]

Look this is a normal feeling , currently i have a couple people in my life with the same exact feeling , we talked and its not easy , but you have to realize every single thing exists for a reason , and everything happens for a reason too, i have so many scenarios in my life that i never thought it would work out the way they did but it all makes sense after you see it , even simple things you do and your existence contributes to the world’s dynamics, as simple as your t.v cable , your house , your payments, and records in this world , all you do changes an action in this world and it all works out the way it should , it sounds crazy but trust me , also many of us wonder why we were choosen to be ehre , and why us, but we dont know everything , and we really shouldnt know every single answer or search it , i believe it will come to you someday, you are not worthless just think of all the people who thought they were but ended up doing much more, u will too , everyone can change the world in some way , as they say , the most 2 important days in your life are

1) the day youre born

2) the day you realize why

I hope you feel better , its hard and you feel frustrated sometimes that things might work out differently that anticipated, but the world is so big and we can control so much but so little , stay strong and realize what you have , your life and you can make it count , take on activities like sports and music, reading or socializing you never know what the future holds, it can be good or bad but you have to see what happens , and the bad can keas ti good and vice versa, trust it and be independant, but be careful too ,

[Aternumvale]

I feel like im trapped honestly in a fog i cant escape. no happy, no joy, I just pick out the horrible things in life now. I tried focusing on the positive things in my life, but i get nothing. I get dragged back to where i was. I lost my father when i was 20 years old. He had a heart attack in the middle of the night and the only ones home were me and my mom. I started CPR but could not save him. I had his vomit on my lips and my mom screaming in the background. I had to call my brother who was away at his girlfriends house at the time and tell him my dad passed. Ever since then I never really wanted to be alive anymore. I remember praying that he would make it from the house all the way to the hospital. I kissed my fathers cold cheek and said goodbye to him while he lay there with E.T. tube and wires hanging off his body. To go home and see my Mother destroyed from that was the hardest part. I can only think God is full of shit. Why would the God I loved take my father at a long waited ease in my life and destroy my mother who has M.S. and leave her to this moment unable to speak of that night just like me. Ever since then I lost faith, and a overall well being for my life.

[suzzze]

I wish I had a solution. Know ur not alone.

[LadyO4]

I think it's very natural to have questions about life and faith and purpose. We wouldn't be human if it were otherwise. Everyone goes through stuff that makes them wonder about these things. People face tough times in this life, but I believe there is a way to cling to hope and find a way to move forward. I just think you have to look in the right places.

I can think back to may many instances where I judged someone only to find out I was wrong about them, and I have had people judge me based on how they did not like my character or accept me for who I was. I have been blamed for things I never did. It sure hurt and still does.

I know of people whose hearts are hurting so badly they blame God for things he never did, and they judge him because they don't know him. Sometimes people have no other explanation than to accuse God for things that happen because there is no where else to turn for answers.

I am sorry you feel your life is hanging in the balance with no direction. That makes me feel sad. Did you know there are simple things you can do to increase the production of hormones that are designed to make you feel better? Understanding how your body works, along with all your glands and hormones, opens up the door to discover ways to improve your quality of life. Your body is amazing, and is so closely connected to your mnd, soul, and spirit. When one is hurting they all hurt.

Something as simple as balancing out your hormones can do wonders. I know it might sound so far-fetched, but seriously, try your hardest to make an appointment with and functional endocrinologist who can help you, and let you see all your options for feeling better. My life has changed because of it. You don't have to stay stuck.

Thanks for letting me share my thoughts and feel free to write back if you'd like.

[Humankind-BE_BOTH]

Sounds to me like you have a case of the "humans" the good news is that it's absolutely curable!! You just have to keep engaging and fighting and you'll get there!!