Lost

[Bebop2071]

I don't really know what to say. Joined because I just need somewhere to talk without feeling even worse, I guess. I'm feeling so lost and alone. This is the first time in a few years that I can honestly think about ending it all. My life is in a shambles and has continued to go down and down over the last two years until I've just reached my breaking point. I've got epilepsy, which has caused a lot of medical issues and caused me to have to leave or get let go from jobs. It put me out of work for about a year and threw me into tremendous debt. Now I might lose my house and most of my family don't even want to deal with me. I have to work tomorrow but I don't know if I can. I can't eat, it's 3am and I can't sleep... The only thing that's keeping me alive right now is knowing my cats wouldn't have a place to go if I did. But even that's getting harder to focus on now. I just don't know what I can do anymore...

[Hopefully_1]

Dear friend, I, like you, have health issues. I owed a company and with in seconds lost it all due to an injury. My company and almost 6 years of long days and hard work was gone. All my self esteem went down the hill and was smashed. After the injury I could not walk. My company required me to be able to walk. They had to replace my knee and a lot of tharipy, both physical and mental. It's been 4 years since my surgery. I tried suicide 2 times. Nether worked. I lost some of my family because of my actions.

Two months ago I gathered up all that I had and decided to try again. I started my business up again. Last week I ran and played scocker with my son for the first time since my accident.

I guess what I am trying to say, my friend, there is a light at the end of the tunnel, not all is lost. Keep hope in your heart. Smile even when you don't feel like it. Take small steps to improvement. Find 1 thing a day that you did our are positive. Know you are never alone. There are others who understand where you are.

Last week I blew out my (dominate arm) shoulder and sprained my hand and wrist... once again I need to deal with a set back... but this time...I will win! You can win too! Keep the hope! Please?

[RealEyes]

Bebop2071 ... hope you are feeling a little better since you wrote your recent post. Life can be a real struggle at times.

Maybe you can find some alternative medical relief for your epilepsy - there is a lot of info out there and maybe there is someone nearby you who can answer some of your questions and concerns.

Anxiety can really make things feed worse plus not getting enough rest. I am hoping you have been getting some rest time these days, too.

If you want to find some info on alternative medicines for epilepsy, I would suggest doing a search on the internet and then asking some people you trust for some feedback on those ideas.

and, keep in mind that You are the most important person in your life ! Thinking of you and keep working at it ... Life is worth it ! realEyes

[Bebop2071 in reply to RealEyes]

Thanks. I really appreciate the thoughts.