I am a single mother to a two year old boy. My mood swings have gotten out of hand the last couple months, I've tried breathing, count downs, walks, anything to help me take a minute to collect myself.. But nothing is working. I spend more time in the bathroom crying then anything else. My mom has been dropping off meals for us, I never seem to remember to eat or to make food when I am in this mood. It comes and goes. Sometimes it's only for a short while, but then there are times when I will spend the whole month in bed sleeping/crying. I want to get better, I went to the family clinic to hopefully find a doctor who can give me something to feel normal again, but i was denied assistance so I cannot afford to go to a doctor or any prescriptions they might prescribe me. Please, can someone just talk to me? I feel like my mind is literally slipping, like I am on the break of insanity. I just want to wake up and play with my son. I want to wake up and go play at the park, or get a job, or get ready for the day. I haven't had the strength or will to do anything. It's not fair for my son to see this, and I hate myself everyday I am like this because I know he knows this isn't what a normal mom does. Just do not want to be healthy, mentally and physically. Not just for me, but for him too.