Self confidence. I want it back

[Mercedes11]

I feel so not enough. Not pretty enough. Not thin enough. Not tough enough. I used to let nothing get me down and now I can’t get back up. I have an appointment for a personal trainer on Saturday morning. So expensive but I want me back. I only get on here when I feel too low. Like I literally want to bury myself to stop feeling this way. So I vent here. I’m hoping this works. ( the training)

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You need to make peace with yourself. Accept yourself as you are. The training will make you feel stronger and you will get in shape, but if you don’t learn to be comfortable in your own skin you will never be content.

[katiebug12]

I get that same feeling pretty often. Surprisingly, working out does really help though. It's just getting up the motivation to actually go and sticking with it. When I work up a good sweat and have a good workout, I feel a little better that I accomplished that for myself. Sometimes it even helps if I plan a time to go with a friend so I feel more obligated to get my ass out of bed and go. I also struggle with my self confidence and self image as well but I have noticed it is worse if I am in public and feel uncomfortable, or if I spend too much time on social media looking through pictures of my friends (who don't even work out) on vacation at the beach looking like a damn victoria's secret model ... all it takes is a few scrolls through instagram for me to hate myself; I start hating the way I look, start beating myself up and feeling like I am not enough, too.

Doing something for myself like get my nails done or fix my hair, put on some makeup and cute clothes just to run errands does make me feel a little better though. Sounds dumb but it makes me feel a little more 'put together'. One thing that is hard for me though is trying to have a positive body image. I am not overweight but I am not what most would call 'skinny' but working out has helped me tone my body up and weight lifting reassures me that being strong and happy is way better than being miserable and skinny. I know what it's like to feel like you're not enough and wishing you can train enough to have the body you've always dreamed of but when I think about it my body is a part of me and suffering with depression has made me realize I should be a lot more nice to me. So when your mind tells you that you're not enough, don't listen to it's lies.