Hello all. My name is Jeff. I am a 30 year old male living in Saint Louis, Missouri. My Mother died of ALS (Lou Gehrig's Disease) when I was 17 years old, and my nephew died of Liver Cancer in January of 2015. I have a full-time job, bought my own house and the whole bit. I have had multiple panic attacks over the years, and have always been shy and suffered from severely low self confidence. As a result of all of this, I have fallen into a deep state of depression. I have never spoken to a therapist at all, as my low confidence makes it difficult to open up to a complete stranger. I am on a daily dose of 50mg of Zoloft. I am just kind of at a crossroads right now. Lately, my anxiety has caused me to back out of many social gatherings. This had led to me only seeing my family, co-workers and roommate on a regular basis. I have many friends, but have alienated a lot of them by my lack of willingness to hangout with them, especially when the gatherings would involve people I have never met before. The activities I do get joy out of currently are very solitary -- I am training for the Chicago Marathon, which involves solo runs 5 days a week. I recently got a cat as a companion, which has been wonderful for me, but it still hasn't pulled me out of my current funk. Just kind of here to begin seeking help and speak with people who may be going through, or have gone through something similar to me. Thank you for reading.