First day at work

So i got the job at the library and even though spidey is still in training im allowed to bring him whenever i want which i was extremely grateful for. My panic attacks have gotten worse after i found out i was hired and i was barely getting any sleep or eating and things took a turn for the worse last night since today was my first day and i was finally getting out there in the real world i was a wreck thinking i would have to deal with new people and spend hours outside my safe place...... last week i talked about OUR STRENGTH how we keep forgetting about it, i left home 2 hours early since my therapist said it would be better that way i would have enough time to calm down (he's the best) the attacks came rushing in, the self doubt, that deep fear the bad thoughts the tears, i wanted this job so badly i already love books now i was going to get paid and be surrounded by thousands of them it was my geeky dream. A dream that my mental illness was trying to ruin like it ruined so many years of my life. I was half hour late on my first day with puffy eyes and i was exhausted drained but i came to work, late or not i came, agoraphobia GAD depression i still made it there. And guess what im going to do with my first paycheck??? Haha im going to buy so much chocolates every dentist in the country will have nightmares 😂😂😂😂😂

[Starrlight]

You made it! 😊 What do you do at the library? I would love to work there with you 😉 quiet and books oh yes.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Im obsessed with books plus im great with computers im basically assisting the librarians in anything that's needed. So much books, libraries are heavenly.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

You should check if your local one is hiring and the pay is great

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

I wish I was great with computers...hmmm

[gogogirl]

Your're a librarian? How cool is that. Do you have a degree in IT or library science?

[Hidden in reply to gogogirl]

Definitely not a librarian

[Hidden in reply to gogogirl]

They basically hired me as a library technician, I'm a book worm and great with computers

[melbrown]

Congrats Danielle ❣❣❣ The library is lucky to have you on their team. Remember you are a strong person & you have a huge cheerteam cheering you on. Big hugs my sunflower 🌻🌻🌻

Ps. Not surprise you are going to spend your paycheck on chocolate 🍫

[Hidden in reply to melbrown]

Thanks Mel lol and you know chocolate always come first 😀

[Hidden]

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[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Hahaha lol homer gets it

[Tdc97]

Congratulations

[Hidden in reply to Tdc97]

Thank you

[20Voices]

Good on you for making it to work. Apart from feeling exhausted at the end of the day , how else did you feel? What were the good positive feelings you felt in getting to work?

Take care and keep going you are doing amazing things.

[Hidden in reply to 20Voices]

I was exhausted when i got there and tired, usually that's how i feel after attacks, then when i started i was on edge the whole time i couldn't really focus on what one of the employees was telling me i kept zoning out for some reason. I was allowed to bring my dog which really helped and telling myself that this is a safe place and im strong.... at the end i felt extremely proud of myself

[20Voices in reply to Hidden]

You should be and so glad you were allowed to have your dog with you.

You have made me smile from the first time we spoke when you were trying to leave the house and I am so please you have gotten this far.

Really good to hear the progress you have made.

20Voices. XX

[Hidden in reply to 20Voices]

Sending you tons of love and positive energy hun im so happy we're both doing better, you were always there for me 💙

[Hidden]

Hey a massive well done to you ! 🎉🎉

Thank you for sharing, this really helps 😊

You deserve that chocolate !!

Best wishes 😊🌺🌼🌺🌼

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

🤗😄😁😁😁 thank you so much

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

your welcome 🌺

[Agora1]

lol That's my girl Danielle...Always makes me smile and always has Chocolate on her mind. x

I'm proud of you x

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

Lol chocolate deserve the first paycheck. Thank you Agora 💙💙💙

[Hidden]

Homer Simpson’s work advice.

youtu.be/jYXzHjbfMDk(Not working as expected?)

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

😂😂😂😂😂😅 lol the American way

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Homer is a genius lmao

[Lostandbroken]

You did it!!! Congrats and enjoy all that yummy chocolate!!

[Hidden in reply to Lostandbroken]

Lol will definitely enjoy the chocolates thanks hun