a constant mind battle

[corrine245]

Good evening fellow bloggers I came on this blog page not knowing much but looking to share my story and know I am not alone in Mental Illness. About 6 months ago I began a battle of severe depression. Somedays I feel so alone and its My depression himself talking and its like I cant fight him. The depression messes with my mind and takes a toll on me. I have lost my self identity due to this depression. Some factors that increase my mental illness are the fact that I am just not good enough to my parents or people who are in their 20s as well. My parents put alot of pressure on me and I am in an abusive relationship with one of them and I was in another just a year ago. I just need to know I am not alone in this battle, that i am only 20 and theres so much life ahead of me I just need to know I am not alone in this and I have some support. I am also in a relationship with my boyfriend. He’s dealt with my depression and has still stuck by my side even in the bad days. I want to get better for him and myself so we both can continue to build our futures and move in together. I don’t want this mental illness to beat me. Any support would be appreciated

[tamka38]

You’re not alone I been struggling with depression and anxiety since 8 years old and I was so depressed I didn’t leave my room for months and was afraid to leave my house afraid to drive my car it was bad and I use to use alcohol to numb my feelings and I stop drinking and month ago and start smoking weed is all bad I feel awful

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Welcome. I hope this venue can help. Are you getting therapy? Are you talking medication for your depression? Feelings of inadequacy are typically self imposed. I’ve struggle with thinking others required more of me than I could give...... it was an illusion. You will need to learn to help yourself - help yourself. It isn’t simple. I’ve been working on this for many years and it’s a struggle. I wish I had this type of outlet years ago. I’ve been reading for less than a month and have gotten answers and questions to ponder that could only come from others with the same struggles. Get better for you and everything else will fall into place. My struggles are less in my fifties than in my twenties. Some things must be experienced as we age. It’s how we handle them that makes or breaks us.