New to Severe and Constant Anxiety

[Jaxe1978]

Hi Everyone, I'm new to the platform, but after reading many of the users post and the communities response it really has helped me already to not feel so alone, that i'm not the only one fighting this. Since my teen years I've sufferered through episode of severe depression, as i got older the durations between episodes thankfully got longer, and have been fortunate not have a serve one for many years. That all changed a couple months, but this time it was not so much the depression as something new to me in extreme anxiety, ;living with depression I've learned to feel it coming and with time can cope with it, the anxiety is completely foreign to me I've never experienced this before and its overwhelming me. I constantly am on edge can't sleep at night , my body shakes and has tremors, my Dr has put my on Buspar and its helped control the tremors and shakes to a degree but I can feel the anxiety from the moment I wake till the moment I fall asleep. the first 2 weeks were some of the worst in my life then the next two I felt like I started to turn the corner a bit (prob the medicine starting to help) but this past week its came roaring back, normally I get a half day or so a couple times a week were I fell somewhat myself, but for the last week that has not been the case. I feel it as soon as I wake and then that sends me deeper down the hole because then I worry about how I'm going to feel this way the entire day. I know I'm suppose to stay grounded in the moment but just unable to to keep my brain from racing. Anything little thing that is not an absolute positive sends my mind racing how the worst thing possible it going to arise from it, its take all the energy i can musture to get out bed and go to work, my productivity has taken a serious dive because of this which then sets off another wave of anxiety. Its completely consuming me, any advice, or things to try to help would be so appreciated!

[Agora1]

Hi Jaxe1978, Welcome to this amazing forum.Now that you left depression behind, what happened several months ago that

brought on this severe anxiety?? Buspar as well as any other medication can take

time to reach full efficacy which is probably why you felt good for a while. If the dosage

is changed during this time frame, symptoms can get worse before getting better.

Another thing to remember is that medication goes only so far. Therapy can be very

beneficial in addressing the root of the problem and have you start working on those issues.

Anxiety comes for a reason, usually when our life gets out of control. We focus all our

attention to the causes but unless we accept or find a solution, the anxiety persists.

I'm glad you are here Jaxe. It can help by talking with others and sharing your experiences

along the way. My best to you, we are here for each other. xx

[Jaxe1978 in reply to Agora1]

HI Agora, thank you for your kind words, there uncertainty with some of my key clients i'm pretty sure that is cause, i'm not sure why as uncertianity in my job is just the norm and has never really bothered me before now, i have started seeing a therapist which i'm just starting to feel comfortable opening up to them as i've never meet with one before, , so hopefully that will help as i feel more comfortable sharing, thanks again.

[Agora1 in reply to Jaxe1978]

Jaxe, I'm glad to hear you will be addressing the issue as you feel more comfortable with your therapist. We are also here to support you.

My best to you xx

[Jaxe1978 in reply to Agora1]

thank you!

[Highly_Anxious]

Hi Jaxxe1978. Welcome to the community. I’ve found counseling has really helped me over the years to get to the root of a lot of my issues. Finding the reason why your anxiety has started taking over is an important step to getting it under control. I know talk therapy isn’t for everyone but for me it gave me the he tools I now use everyday.

Some techniques that can help with the anxiety are journaling (getting your thoughts and fears out on paper), meditation, & deep breathing. Hope things get better for you soon.

[Jaxe1978 in reply to Highly_Anxious]

HI Highly, thank you for you kinds words and support,

[Hidden]

Hi there. I came to anxiety suddenly after a traumatic event and it hit me like a wall several months later. Therapy has helped me a lot but if there is something you need right now that can help I would recommend the Dare app - there’s a meditation on there called Deep Release which is basically a grounding meditation which gives immediate help.

[Jaxe1978 in reply to Hidden]

Hi Experience, thank you the recommendation i'm downloading it now and will try it tonight!

[Midori]

Hi Jaxe, Welcome to the forum.

Do you have a counsellor or therapist who can help?

What I am seeing is the anxiety is causing you to worry more, then you become more anxious so you worry even more, more anxious, more worry, and it becomes what I call a feedback loop, as one thing feeds on another.

Can you interrupt the cycle in any way? Movies, music, getting out for a walk, something to break that vicious circle.

Covid has not helped the situation, unfortunately. More folk are reporting feeling depressed than ever before, and I think it'd to do with the isolation.

Cheers, Midori

[Jaxe1978 in reply to Midori]

HI Midori thanks for reaching out, what you wrote is exactly what happened , where i'm anxious and then i worry about getting more anxious. i have started seeing therapist for the time in my life so i'm still trying to get comfortable talking about this with her , but she did recommend what you were saying so when i wake up early i go for 20-30 min walk with make me feel less tired, but my mind just race and thinks about everything i have have to tackle for the day, so get even more anxious i jut can't seem to get the idea that everything is going to go bad out my head,, most of the suff logically i know is not going to happen or won't be that bad if they do but my my body and mind keep telling me that it going to be the worst thing possible..

[Roia]

If it was a deeply traumatic event that caused your anxiety to sprint, i would also suggest short term antianxiety meds.For instance when my mom passed away i took klonopin every day for 2 weeks. I needed something quick acting and that definitely helped.

Healing thoughts your way!

[Jaxe1978 in reply to Roia]

HI Roi thanks for reaching out, my dr has prescribe me Xanax for me to take on my tuff days, i've read it can be addictive so i'm trying limit how often i take , but it does help me get through those rough days, thanks again.

[Roia in reply to Jaxe1978]

That's good. Sometimes just knowing that meds are available to help, makes anxiety less severe. One day at the time, that's really all we have.

[marsdream]

Hey Jaxe1978, I am sorry that you are struggling. You are not alone in this struggle. Did you talk to your doctor about adjusting your medication? I have struggled with depression in the past, and I have learned to pray and to try to focus on living one day at a time. I will pray for you. Father in Jesus name, I pray that Jaxe1978 will have peace in his mind, body and soul. You care about what is going on in his life so I ask that you would surround his days and night with your presence in Jesus name. Amen.

[Jaxe1978 in reply to marsdream]

hi marsdream, thank you so much for reaching out and your kinds words, i'm meeting with my dr later this week to discuss change the buspar dosage as the 15mg twice a day def is working as well as it was the first couple weeks, thanks again.

[JkBauer]

Good morning,I am sorry that you are dealing with anxiety, depression.

One thing that I have learned that helps me get my day started off on a positive note. As I wake up first thing in the morning; I say "Good Morning Heavenly Father!" Then, I know, no matter what my day holds or goes, I have one positive thing that has happened today. I said Good Morning! ------A couple of other things that help me out is getting out and going for a walk or some kind of exercise during the day and I make sure to pray throughout the day.

[Jaxe1978 in reply to JkBauer]

HI Jk thank you for reaching out and the kinds words, i start each morning speaking with god thanking him for the day before not being as bad as other, and to to give me the personal strength to deal with this, i just don't feel like I have it in me today, today s a bit of rougher one so bit more melon colony today, in mind my mind i think if a have few ok days that i;m turning the corner, then i have a day like today and it gets me down. I need to learn to accept that its not a straight line its going be a roller coaster like it was in the past, just hard accpet that today.

[JkBauer in reply to Jaxe1978]

Good morning Jaxe...,Hang in there, you have got this! Remember, we all have those kinds of roller coaster days. You are not alone. Keep praying and God bless you!

[Jaxe1978 in reply to JkBauer]

thank you!