Hi all. I have suffered from anxiety since I was a child, I am now 38yrs old. Throughout the years I have gone through periods of bad anxiety and then I would find my way out of it. But the last 2 months have been the worst it has ever been. Looking back now I can see it was a slow build up to get to this point. But for the last 2 months I find myself terrified of being left alone for fear that I am going to have a heart attack or something. I have had myself checked out medically and everything is fine, but I still worry. Because each time I experience anxiety or have a panic attack, I think now I might have done damage to my heart again and the anxiety starts all over again.
My husband tries to be supportive, but it is clear that as a non anxiety sufferer he really doesn't understand how horrible to feels to be in this state. But I know it is not fair for me to ask him to stay home, and he can't he has to work. But I find myself irrationally thinking this anyway.
Life feels hard these days. I have a lot of physical symptoms from the anxiety and all the tension built up in my body....and I just really hate feeling this way.
I have medication and will be seeing a therapist. I'm hoping it will help, as I really want to be my happy self and start enjoying life again.