Hi all, I'm a 22 year old student just about to move to London later this year, and I've been struggling badly with anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts for the last two years or so. I have Asperger's (albeit very mild) so I find it hard to make friends, but I've managed to make some strong friendships while at university, but now that I'm moving away and everyone from my course has gone back home I feel so distant from everyone and it is very painful. I am also really brought down by low self-esteem and thinking that I will never find someone who can genuinely enjoy spending time with me. Eventually I would like to find someone to be in a relationship with but I'm struggling to see that happening. I know this sounds like a very small thing to be upset about but I have only touched the surface here, and I just feel desperately alone in the world right now and am struggling to find a reason to keep going. I was on citalopram (40 mg) for a few months last year until I spiraled rather badly and intentionally overdosed on them, and then was off medication for a year and have just started on sertraline three weeks ago (50 mg, probably moving up to 100 mg tomorrow). While this has helped a bit with anxiety, I'm now finding myself still rather depressed about the prospect of being alone in life for a long time.
So I was just wondering, does anyone have any good tips on how to enjoy being alone and accepting the fact that you're lonely? I really don't enjoy the solitude and it's starting to feel quite dangerous whenever I'm alone for too long now so any advice would be greatly appreciated! Of course I would be more than happy to offer my own coping strategies or help anybody else in any way I can.