When I was 15 I was diagnosed with ibs. A lot of different family stuff was going on at the time and I didn't handle it well. Rewind a bit growing up i was very much into cop shows and military movies. My plan was military and stay in if i really got into it or when I was out become a cop. Well being told I couldn't enlist in the military due to the medical condition and or become a cop was crushing. I burried it deep inside like I do alot of things. It's now 23 years later and it's still hurts. I haven't found anything like that that I was so passionate about. I never really talked about it with anyone either since I burried it. I've worked in different food stores since and now I'm a sous chef. But I haven't really enjoyed any of the jobs. I need to pay rent and bills though!
So it all kinda has blown up now with the other stuff going on as well. My loneliness and depression. My therapist says I need to let these things out. So I'm trying here as well with her cause i know she's right. Plus i wanna get better. Maybe if i get this out and deal with it I can move forward and maybe find something I could be passionate about. Even now when I watch a cop/military show or movie I feel some pain. Even writing this.
Thanks for reading/listening to this. You all are very helpful and understanding. I appreciate it.
I'll have more to share I'm sure. I just gotta due it in small doses.
Hope everyone is having a good night.
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I wanted to be an auto mechanic. I went to a tech school. The teacher said I put a cotter pin in wrong and took my baseball hat off and cut idiot nips in the bill of my hat in front of the whole class. I had to wear the hat the rest of class. Needless to say I gave up on that pursuit. I hardly think about it anymore but just wanted to share my experience.
Hi, Michael. I'm glad you are sharing your experience. I understand how you are disappointed about not having a career in the military or police. With your condition, you have to find a position that is accommodating. I'm not sure what careers are available to you.
However, maybe you can look at forums for suggestions.people who have the same condition.
Perhaps if you haven't joined a gym yet you can work out. I go to the gym and I see the local fireman there. My friend is a cop and he practices martial arts.
I wonder if you could be a private investigator . Maybe you can get a federal job. My brothers work for the department of defense. Or even Merchant Marine. I'm not sure if they are really strict. My friend who is a woman works as a supply officer for the merchant marines.
There are a lot of jobs you've never heard of. You just need to research.
Remember your identity is not just your job. Find hobbies and interests that make you feel complete .take care.
Thank you. I think after I get this out and start to finally move past it and not hold onto it. Things will start to open up for me. I've held on tight and now I have to let it go. Maybe then things that you've said or I've looked at will light a fire in me or light bulb in my head saying I'd like to do that. Or maybe find my passion again. That's my Hope!
I couldn't agree more. Just have to get out of this funk I'm in. Then I'll find things that interest me outside of work.
Hope your morning is going well.
Hi Michael.
Thank you for sharing.
Like you, I have things I find it difficult to share, realise how difficult it is so well done. Working on similar with my therapist.
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looking for help and someone to share with.
