Cant handle any more...

[Aspergirl47]

Hey Guys...Ive only been sleeping a few hours a night and then waking up with a load of obsessive/worrying thoughts that give me panic attacks....today was the worst and I literally could hardly walk without feeling exhaustion....I contacted my community psychiatric nurse to get help and have been told I'm completely discharged from the services.....I have Autism and my local Autism resource centre is now closed down so no help there.....and to top it off...find out my horrible Narcissist ex partner has actually rented a flat in the block next to me.....now my anxiety is chronic wondering if he has done this deliberately to keep an eye on me/control still.....I have to much to deal with I'm just wanting peace.....

[fauxartist]

geeezzzz....I am so sorry all this is going upside down for you, thought things were going good there for you, hadn't seen you here for a while and what a mess of problems your having to deal with. Well....first thing is...you do need to give yourself a break to recharge your batteries, regroup, and take each problem on one step at a time...I know all this kind of advice seems so boiler plate random advice...but really....you can't solve anything when your tired, exhausted, and overwhelmed. Hang in there kiddo...glad you sharing about it....even if it helps a little....all good

[Aspergirl47 in reply to fauxartist]

Hey fauxartist...Good to hear from u as always I'm so overwhelmed by everything and my autistic brain wont process properly ....when I try to rest my brain will not shut off and I ruminate....suspected ocd....and now I have no support apart from you lovely guys ...Appreciated... youre right nothing can be sorted properly when I'm this tired...its just making me teary and unable to cope....Hope u are doing good fauxartist

[fauxartist in reply to Aspergirl47]

I'm doing okay my friend....the same as many....dealing with ups and downs....but was glad to see you again writing...and sorry for you this is happening....I tried getting up early again in the morning, even though I didn't get to sleep till late...but hopefully It will help me konk out tonight...I understand the hamster wheel in my head of thinking...right now I'm in that place too...it's just hard sometimes to shut it off sometimes...I hope you can get some rest soon....

[Aspergirl47 in reply to fauxartist]

Hey I hope u feel better and get a good nights sleep. theres nothing worse than a circle of negative thoughts that seem to torment us...I slept 4 hours last night but severe shaking and panic when I woke which then drains me for the rest of the day...So glad we all have each other on here....people who truly understand.... Why is it the people who don't want to cause any harm always seem to suffer? just doesn't seem fair....Good to hear from u buddy...

[fauxartist in reply to Aspergirl47]

doing okay today my friend....I'm playing with the little ones today looking up dinosaurs and how to make dirt cups with pudding, cookies, and gummie worms....so I am hoping to konk out tonight a bit better.....I really hope you too get some sleep....I do the white noise thing...I know to a lot it doesn't make sense...but if I turn on the tv...sound low..and my brain heres the talking or music....it's focus on the fear and anxiety over thinking gets side tracked..and eventually I fall asleep. Keep posting on your progress...

[Aspergirl47 in reply to fauxartist]

Good to hear it HaHa Sounds like youre having fun there...nothing better than little ones around ensures u have some fun...I have a little niece ...shes also on the spectrum...reminds me very much of myself when I was her age... I hope u have a sound sleep too my friend....I managed to go to my local park today for a walk..i find nature really calming..took some photos too but being good old Scotland..it started raining heavily and I had to quit lol...I get u...I leave the tv on sometimes and put it onto the radio stations so I can hear the voice...it definitely does help....or I put on a relaxation cd very low ...I have one that lasts for half an hour and I can fall asleep listening to the calming voice.... we need to try .....see what works best....I will keep posting and I hope u do too buddy...

[DandilionPuff]

I am a therapist working with adults with ASD. Try drawing- stick figures and scribbles are perfectly fine-it forces left brain thinking. You can get through this!!!

[Aspergirl47 in reply to DandilionPuff]

Thank u Appreciate your help ....My situation is so overwhelming just now...good to know u work with people on the spectrum I will give that a try ....I love drawing

[DandilionPuff in reply to Aspergirl47]

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[Hidden]

Sorry to hear about how you are feeling right now.

Perhaps some respite and someone to talk to?

If it would appeal,

I have personally not tried it, although have heard good reports about it..

g.co/kgs/iRVTVf

Best wishes 🌺 xx

[Aspergirl47]

Appreciated Olivia40......I had some counselling a while ago but unfortunately the therapist didn't know a great deal about Aspergers so unfortunately I had to stop attending....I will have a look and see what they have on offer I think I do need counselling but was told unless a therapist has had some Autism training ...it doesn't always help...hopefully they might be able to offer some help...I'm so tired atm....Best Wishes to u also and Thanks

[Hidden in reply to Aspergirl47]

Hi there

The link I’ve put in here is a link to some respite, so you go stay there to get away for a few days, it’s not really counsell8ng as such, but a place to recuperate, they do have staff and I’m sure they are in hand to help if required. Was thinking more of a place for you to have a break away, it shows the place it looks quite nice, and if you are accepted I think it’s free...

Best wishes x

[Aspergirl47 in reply to Hidden]

Hi ...Sorry I thought it was a place to go for counselling That would certainly be worth looking at ...Thank u....as I have been a carer to my autistic son also for a good while before I knew I was autistic myself..I was only diagnosed in 2014....it has completely exhausted me and I can feel my health really suffering....Appreciate your help Olivia40 ....xx

[Hidden in reply to Aspergirl47]

No worries. Have a read up on it when you get chance ..see if it would be suitable..just a thought obvs no pressure.

Take care xxx

[DandilionPuff]

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