Life

[Sky2016]

Do you really know what the meaning of life really means. ..? I have struggle since 10/27/17 that is the day I can never forget. There's days I go asking myself why have I been spare so many times. I have try to commit suicide two times and failed both times. Why have a been spare but my granddaughter was taken from me. Why is life so unpredictable. I quit my job 4/20/2017 so I could spend as much time as I could with her and at the end it felt like it was all done for nothing. I was diagnosed with "broken heart syndrome ". My heart sure is broken. I have isolated myself no friends, even my own mother has turn her back on me. My husband he's the most evil person out there instead of helping me he makes me feel guilty. My daughter I love her so much but I feel she would be better off if I was gone. I have so much in my head bad ,good ,happy thoughts but the bad ones always take over. Sam and Sky looking at sky not realizing that Sky would be gone in a few months. Oh how I miss you my tiny tomatitos.

[HelpingElbow]

Your pain is unimaginable. I am sorry to hear that.

I would request you to please hold yourself together and don't lose control. Your heart may be broken. But broken things can be mend too.

Your perspective must change. The most wonderful thing that has happened in your life is - YOU. So, I don't understand why you are breaking down over external things. Why is it that you are treating yourself so harshly.

Please take care of yourself. When the time is right, things would fall in place automatically. Believe me.

Wishing you a good health. Take care.

[Agora1]

Sky2016, my heart goes out to you. xx

[Starrlight]

💕

[Concernedparent23]

A baby is such a special gift.

You are overwhelmed with grief just now.

Your daughter must be struggling with her loss too.

Please don't add to your daughter's load, it would be utterly devastating to lose her mother as well as her child.

She really won't be better off with out you.

The pain may stop for you but it will just be amplified for everyone else around you.

You need some proper help and support with this , some grief counselling.

Please call the suicide helpline where you are, or seek emergency help, or see your doctor urgently.

My heart goes out to you x

[dreamahone]

Hang in there no matter howextreme the pain is it will pass I am so sorry for your loss