The dam has broken

[makaio]

I’ve been depressed for over 9 years now. I’ve finally decided to seek out professional help. Everyday my emotions and sadness overwhelm me, today I was crying at work and had barely eaten anything, my body felt like jello all day to the point if I laid down I’d sleep the day away. I feel like everything is pouring out finally and I’m feeling so overwhelmed. I don’t have much of an appetite unless I drink alcohol then I get hungry. Anyone else feel scared confronting your depression?

[Hidden]

I got really depressed a year ago and wasn’t eating. I went from 230 to 160 pounds. The rapid loss in weight has caused liver damage. Please make sure you eat.

[makaio in reply to Hidden]

I try to eat...but food doesn’t have that satisfaction anymore. I usually take a couple bites and that’s forcing myself to eat.

[Hidden in reply to makaio]

I hear you. I am not trying to force you to eat but just share with you what happened to me. So you could avoid any problems. What about liquids?

[makaio in reply to Hidden]

Just a few ounces of water but I find myself drinking a lot of alcohol every night...

[Hidden in reply to makaio]

Doesn’t alcohol aggravate depression? What about a protein shake? They sell them all ready to drink.

[makaio in reply to Hidden]

I’m just so sad. I found out my mother and two younger sisters are also in counselling and taking medication. I just find myself drinking a lot.

[Hidden]

Alcohol is a depressant. I don't want to preach to you, but what you are doing is self medicating and not in a good way. Your body needs water or juice to maintain itself. Your muscles and brain need protein. If you can not eat or drink fluids much then eat and drink often. Fill your fridge with athletic drinks packed with electrolytes, and juice and small edible snacks like nuts and berries and cheese sticks. But please, don't use alcohol, it is addictive and not good for you.💖

[makaio in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for the advice. Im just not motivated to do anything. Work everyday is a struggle and I’m in management. So I constantly need to play this leadership role but deep down inside I’m so depressed.

[Hidden]

I understand. You seem to be concerned for your mother and sisters. Take that concern and take care of yourself for them. Love can motivate us when we seem like we can't take another step.

[Priscillar307]

Absolutely. A lot of the times we feel that we are capable of fixing things ourselves, but sometimes we do need help from others and that’s totally ok! You’re taking a bid step and u should acknowledge and be proud of that for helping yourself!

[makaio in reply to Priscillar307]

Thank you for the supporting words. I just think I’ve been dealing with this myself for way too long and now need professional help. Especially after a few things.