This is my first post (and will definitely not be my last) to this group. I won’t go in to deep right now but I suffer from childhood trauma that developed into anxiety and depression into my teenage years, and got worse when I lost my mother to an accidental overdose my senior year of high school. I’ve been good about handling both my depression when I can feel it closing in around me and I start not feeling like myself, and also my anxiety when I do finally have the energy to get out of bed to function. Lately not so much, I feel like there is this hole in me I can’t close and this anxiety... it feels like I’m drowning and the only way to not drown is to let it out. I’m typically not a cryer and I’ve been a faucet lately. I feel broken even though I know I not, but I still worry that I am. Even with all of this I find myself putting on a act for friends and family. I’m the girl who smiles and will be there for anyone else but often I feel utterly alone.