Lost

[red_di1211]

I have always been very open about my struggles with depression and anxiety. My family, friends, and students know they can come to me. However, I realized last night that I don't really have anyone to talk to. My mother has always been my go-to in the past when the demons start to pop-up again, but she has enough on her plate lately. With kids and spouses, all of my friends are busy. We haven't really talked in a while, and I feel awkward contacting them out of the blue for help. I'm not suicidal or anything. I made an appointment to up my antidepressant dosage, but I can't get in until the beginning of June. In an attempt at self-help, I signed up for an exercise class tonight. I just feel lost, tired, detached, overwhelmed, short-tempered, and guilty. My husband is great, but I know he's unsure of what to do or say. My house is a constant mess (which doesn't help with my anxiety) and bills are getting paid late (another anxiety trigger). It's exhausting trying to keep my "game face" on for my children and students. I know they can sense that something is up though. So, this group is kind of my only avenue for help at the moment.

[Agora1]

Hi red_di1211 and Welcome to a safe place for you to come to where you can be heard without judgment. Even the strongest of strong, need a listening ear at times. After all, we all our human with emotional needs and caring. In this forum there are men and women of all ages and careers who have been impacted by anxiety/depression. Therapy is an outlet but nothing seems to make us feel less alone than talking with others who truly understand and care.

You have found us. Whenever you are ready, we are here to comfort and let you know it will be okay. Going through this together Hold our hands and Breathe xx

[StarryNight72]

Hi Red,

I can so identify with what you’re going through. I just moved 1/2 way across the country and am separated from all of my support systems too. You are not alone. We are here. Sending you hugs.

[Olinick]

I am so glad you wrote what you did. I have been feeling the same way, especially about being alone. Tonight the depression has been spiraling downward very fast. I don't know how long it will last but after reading your post I am starting to feel a little bit better. Maybe tomorrow won't be such a bad day. It felt good to hear from someone who knows exactly how I feel. At least in some way I am not alone. Thanks for sharing.

[Iamfreya]

ok, I can so relate to this. You are not alone! take heart in that

[red_di1211]

Today is a better day. I tried an exercise class last night. Venting some of my pent up frustration, sadness, anger, fear, and anxiety seems to have helped. I don't feel as overwhelmed as I did yesterday, so I'm going to another class tonight. I'm sure upping my Lexapro dosage isn't hurting either. Reading the comments also helps. It is always reassuring to know that I'm not truly alone in this. Thank you all so much!