Falling back into old habits

[mg19]

Hi, this is my first time on here so I don't really know how this works but I need to get some things off my chest. For the first time in my relationship, my boyfriend had to deal with me having a breakdown. For months I have bottled up all of my feelings and ignored them until it finally hit me. I am off sick at work and it coming close to the time where I will not get paid if I do not go back but I'm not ready; which is causing immense stress. I feel so alone but I don't want to put this burden on my boyfriend again because he has issues going on too. I can't help but feel like it is me against the whole world and I'm losing the battle.

[fauxartist]

Hey mg19....I'm glad your sharing here...and I understand not wanting to burden your boyfriend...and wanted to know if your seeing a therapist ....if not...and you can....they would ease your worry of not burdening your boyfriend, and because they are a professional, they would be able to help you sort this stuff your feeling out. Also by writing here, and reading others posts and comments...you won't feel so alone...good people here...welcome.

[mg19 in reply to fauxartist]

I've just got back in touch with them but I can't see this fully going away

[fauxartist in reply to mg19]

no.....I agree....we kind of learn to cope and live with our stuff....that's what I got out of therapy.... I'm always gonna have my depression, etc...it's just the way I'm wired...I have good days and bad days...I am on SSRI's ...not everyone wants to take meds, for me it's a no brainer....but there are alternatives to meds. I hope you find what works best for you...and sharing here always helps....