Too much.

[torresvee38]

Hi, everyone. I’m new here, because my anxiety has been overwhelming. I have 2 jobs and everyday I want to quit. I have attacks at work and cry constantly. I went off medication last year but will be seeing the doctor soon. I will also be looking up therapy. My fiancé doesn’t understand me and I don’t really have friends to talk to about this. It’s all too much. I should be happy. Should, but I’m not. I mask my depression very well. Don’t we usually? I want to fight this, I would love to just know I’m not alone.

[Doglover87]

I am also new to the message board you are not alone! I just joined today! It feels like lately my husband is having a hard time with my depression. I go to work feeling anxious and I come home and feel like no one wants to talk to me because they are afraid of offending me or making me cry. We are all in this life together. It would be great to have support!

[torresvee38 in reply to Doglover87]

Very spot on. My fiancé loves me in every way but he sometimes gets upset when I feel the way I do. He’s such a positive person. (We are polar opposites; they definitely attract) he gets upset because he can not understand, though he tries. I’m sick to my stomach everyday going in. Primarily in my full time job.

[Doglover87 in reply to torresvee38]

Same here i am currently looking for a new job because my supervisors are causing me more stress and it's affecting my home life.. jobs can be a huge trigger lol and the people at them

[torresvee38 in reply to Doglover87]

Work is definitely a major factor. The slightest mistake or there can be no mistake made, and I go into panic. I want to be productive and contribute alongside him, but everyday is a war zone in my head, and stomach.

[Doglover87 in reply to torresvee38]

Bosses are perfectionists too.. so if you make a mistake they hear from it from upper management.. it's a vicious cycle.. Lol

[Doglover87 in reply to Doglover87]

I work for a big corporation and every dollar counts...

[FinnPanda in reply to torresvee38]

Spot on! I couldn’t have said it better myself. I’m in the same situation, I love my fiancé and he’s been so loving and supporting but sometimes I feel like I can’t be me/feeling like this around him because it’s too much for him or he’s getting tired of me not getting better. So nice to know I’m not alone with this one.

[torresvee38 in reply to FinnPanda]

Yes, you feel like you hold back on what you say to them. You feel like it’s just nagging him/them.

[FinnPanda in reply to torresvee38]

Exactly. And then I feel like I’m hiding how I’m really feeling/I’m lying to him and that’s no good either.

[Lu2356]

Hello. I am new as well and can relate to ur attacks. I would get them when things were a bit much. So many demands and what not. I have felt alone as well. My husband gets annoyed with me as if I am able to turn these attacks on and off. They have come from nowhere at times. It’s been pretty hard with my mom given that I am her caregiver. Hearing all these different stories on different forums has helped. One day at a time is what I tell myself. I am just so glad to have found this and as an app as well. Hope u have great day! ☺️

[Phoenix81]

No tips/advice. Just posting to say that you're not alone. I feel exactly like you. <3