Depressed and Blu

[skatr72]

I'm new to this web-site Because I don't leave the house anymore. I'm taking steps to find help and someday feel happy again. I think its really hard when Mothers & daughters are torn apart. My mom passed away in 2017 and I don't know how to move on without her. Why is the pressure in my chest so heavy? How do I turn off my brain to stop thinking of my mom? I'm releasing the pressure with waterfall of tears. I cry almost all the time. I'm making plans to see a counselor every chance I can to help me to feel hopeful and not blue. It is extremely hard but I'm also taking baby steps to get out of the house, I can walk the dog and still be alone. Other than that, I'm not doing much of anything except eating a lot of ice cream and chocolate.

[Hidden]

I’m so sorry!! That’s terribly sad and my heart goes out to you. I don’t think you can turn off your brain to not think of her but I know that there are grief support groups at churches that help people go through the grieving process. Connecting with others who are grieving is probably the best way to cope. There are also inpatient hospital programs that will help you. Do you have any support system at all? I think you are doing the best you can on your own but grieving alone is just too much.

[skatr72 in reply to Hidden]

Thank U, I can't find support groups, I thought it would be good to go, sit and listen to others talk about the same thing. I will keep checking. No, I don't have any support, I don't have that one person that can even begin to understand how I feel. Plus, most of the time I start crying anyway. even now as I type this note, the anger I feel, I don't want to take it out on others. I try to be alone so nothing & no-one can trigger an emotion. When I'm not feeling sad, there is another feeling right behind it. I feel overwhelmed going through her stuff by myself. I'm taking it one box at a time. I will use your reply for reference.

[Agora1]

You were? For 15 years? I'm sorry

[Robinrenae]

I'm very sorry for your loss. I can tell from your post you and your mother were very close...I hope that some of your happy memories of your times with your mom will visit you and give you some comfort. And reaching out here was a good step in the right direction too I think. I want you to feel better and I know your mom would too. Sending love and light your way. (((Hugs)))