Still sad

[tylerjjjj]

yesterday was the start of a depression spree. its day 2 and im more down than i was yesterday. i woke up screaming because i didnt want to come into work. I keep loking at myself in the mirror, hating what i see and I just feel like im not getting anywhere in life.... then on top of that i dont want to tell my family or friends because i feel like they just make me feel worse. I want my old life back. I want to be happy again.

[fauxartist]

I know your hurting and still grieving the loss of your grandma...and I am very sorry for that...but I think grandma is always with you, and she would want for her babygirl nothing but success and happiness in her life...so try to get yourself into some grief and loss counselling, there are groups for this as well...I went to both and it helped me to deal with the grief and to move forward. Your never gonna forget your grandma...she'll always be with you where ever you go, try to start making these positive memories instead of sad ones...how did she make you laugh, feel better, give you encouragement...hear those words...make her smile with your smile....your gonna get better with this...it takes a long time to get there...and it takes what it takes....I am glad your able to share here....

[tylerjjjj in reply to fauxartist]

faux you always say the most compelling and soothing things to me. thank you for being so kind to me. i have seeked counseling. im just taking it one minute at a time at this point

[fauxartist in reply to tylerjjjj]

that's all you can do honey....baby steps....most of us have had to deal with a very personal loss....and it's not been easy for anyone....I'd be lying if I said anything else, your sad, your heart is broken...but try to draw on your grandmas strength she gave you, use it to cope with these hard days ahead. Just do your best....and some days just do nothing and re-charge your batteries to go another day.

[tylerjjjj in reply to fauxartist]

<3 thank you so much

[Slumberland]

From your picture I can tell that your beautiful ! I feel the same way when I go on my depression sprees, the second and third day always feel like the worst in my opinion.

Sometimes when we feel this way we forget to eat, and that makes things ten times worse without us realizing it. Make sure you are eating and getting your vitamins. Lack of vitamins can prevent you from feeling happy.

Try to arm yourself with happy thoughts before you go into work. Know that you are brave !

[tylerjjjj in reply to Slumberland]

Thank you slumberland. I will try my best to take better care of myself. im indulging in buffalo wild wings today when i get off work

[Slumberland in reply to tylerjjjj]

that’s good I know when I’m sad I forget to eat and it makes the depression last longer.

[tylerjjjj in reply to Slumberland]

I should pay attention to that a little more and see if thats makes it worse

[Hidden]

Im so sorry you feel this way Tyler .. you’re such a beautiful and caring girl I pray you know that.

I totally understand how telling Close people can make it worse. But i hope you do have someone to support you through this . You have all of us here anyway. Always here for you x

Please take care of yourself physically.. eating , washing, getting some air x i tend to stop all these things at these rough times but i makes everything a lot worse x

Message me any time ♥️

[tylerjjjj in reply to Hidden]

Thank you hope. I appreciate your kind and warming words. <3