Need comfort

[Cat26538]

Woke up this morning feeling like someone else. I’m a lost cause. I can’t do this anymore. I’m a complete nightmare and waste of time and space. I’m taking 30mg of Buspirone 3x a day for anxiety and I feel like a zombie. I’m having horrible panic attacks all the time. I’ve been zoning/spacing out like crazy. I’m constantly stressed out and frustrated and crabby and tired. I constantly feel like something bad is gonna happen. I’ve also started having nightmares during the day. I wanna hurt myself and die. Idk what to think or do anymore. I cry myself to sleep every night.

[cricketannie]

I’m so sorry you are going through this. Remember that this is just temporary. Your body is doing this, and it isn’t who you are. I know how awful it can feel to not have any control over this monster we are dealing with.

You aren’t alone in this, and you are strong enough to get yourself healthy.

Have you talked to your doctor about the meds maybe not working?

[Cat26538 in reply to cricketannie]

Not yet. I see him on the 30th

[cricketannie in reply to Cat26538]

Good! That’s an appointment to look forward to! I’m thinking about talking to my doctor, too. I’m on Sertraline and think maybe I need to up my dose. I haven’t been taking it for very long, but I was starting to feel a lot better, and then wham...the past couple of days have been hard. I guess it’s just a big process to get everything straight.

Let me know how things go for you. It’s nice to be able to share how I’m feeling with someone who actually understands.

[Cat26538 in reply to cricketannie]

Your welcome. It’s nice to know that people actually care

[Stan_K]

Hey Cat26538.

You’re definitely not alone and I’ve been in that exact though process before myself. I know it gets hard, very hard sometimes - but what you have to see and realize for yourself is that our minds play about a 90% part in what happens to us. The other ten are just the symptoms of what our mind has caused our brains to react to. I know this may sound crazy, but I had experienced horrible panicky episodes, being anxious all the time for no reason(which the reason is that we are always thinking about the what-ifs, why is this happening, and should I give up) even when we don’t notice that we are thinking those things. What I did was exercise(long walks at the park, which eventually ended up with me running and jogging), changing my schedule around, watching YouTube videos of other people and their problems and solutions(which is always encouraging), praying and meditating, and yoga and stretches before going to sleep. These things actually work very well. As soon as you tell yourself that you’re not going to live in a negative bubble and start doing these things, it helps. Think about it: We tend to think negatively almost 100% of the time and rarely even want to think in a positive manner because we are so caught up in thoughts like( nothing is going to change, this is it for me) and that’s why we feel that way. GOD does t desire for us to live that way and we have to exercise a mustard seed size of faith in order to move forward. Trust me, exercise(it’ll wear you out to the point where you can’t think about too much, it’ll tire you, and releasing endorphins is one of the most valuable and important ways to begin the healing process). You are great, you are awesome, and you can do this Cat26538! Please try and you will get better. GOD BLESS

[Cat26538 in reply to Stan_K]

Thanks for those encouraging words.

[Stan_K in reply to Cat26538]

You’re so very welcome Cat❤️ I’ve been there and I know exactly how you feel and it does get a whole lot better. Trust me! I’m always on here if you ever need to talk 👍

[EmLee96]

it sounds like you know something is wrong, which is good because you need to know what is happening in order to have something change. have you told your doctor this? it sounds like you need a med change or a dosage change. just take a deep breath, take it one day at a time until your next appointment.