Having a bad day

[Rpan]

I get so inpatient and angry. The anxiety starts and I get agitated. Everything seems ridiculous. I jump into judgement zone, criticizing ( in my head) everything and anything that is being said to me. I than just notice that everything is negative ( my thoughts included) everything becomes a chore. Most of all I’m envious that others can just live and enjoy their surroundings. This cycle is constant for me, any suggestions?

[EmLee96]

I always had hate speech going on in my head. I was harsher on myself than other people. I got mad at myself easily. I got frustrated easily. My anxiety heightened because I had to control all of these emotions and hide them... Which led to me making mistakes... Which led to more hate speech. Which led to a pessimistic attitude.

My therapist kept telling me to take the hateful sentence and turn it into something true to help deal with the thoughts. And so when I would think "man I'm so stupid I can't ever do anything right" I would then tell myself "no. It makes sense if I'm trying to do 3 things at once that I am going to mess up." I would sometimes stop myself and tell myself outloud that it was okay if I messed up, that the bad thing was my going to happen, etc. I had to learn to be nicer to myself and then everything else was easy since I wasn't being so hard on myself I could loosen up and have fun.

[Rick1on1]

The only to break the cycle is to set boundaries around your triggers.

Do you know what your triggers are?

[jrobertson1]

No advice but I really identify with this especially when at work.

[MommyBro]

Rpanio, I understand, I often feel similarly. I agree with EmLee 96. I've also had therapists tell me to interrupt my all or nothing/black and white, self-judging thoughts and evaluate their truthfulness. I would be hard pressed to find one that is completely accurate. Being negative is a bad habit of mine, a worn track that is easy to follow. I must break away from this and get in the habit of being truthful and less judgmental. Not easy to break an ingrained habit